Now all of your emotions and feelings were a hot mess. First was Kaen before you even came to Japan you had a crush on him or you think you did anyway. Definitely, had way more love for him than anyone ever did that was for sure. The love never went away even when you thought he died it still remained in your heart. It just blossomed when he crashed into his life. Then here comes Touya who was next and you had a crush on him as well that you just chalked up to brotherly love but, you see now that he loved you more than your average brother. Then your newest ones were Rumi and Keigo who filled up most of your heart and you just didn't know what to do anymore. You loved all of them but, you wanted a romantic relationship with Rumi and Keigo but at the same time you want to be more touchy-feely with Toya but, not quite a relationship. Maybe? Kaen you never changed so that was fine but, Touya was new. You didn't want to lose Touya but then you didn't necessarily feel the same way he did. Maybe he was confused or were you the confused one?

"FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY IS EVERYTHING SO DAMN CONFUSING! AAARGHHHH!" You yelled out slamming your head hard onto the table unaware of the concerned looks thrown your way.

"Uhhhh..." Enji looked at Toshi for help.

"Are you okay?" You looked up slowly your hair overshadowing your eyes and glaring at your two father figures. Enji and Toshi. You loved them both to death but, you weren't sure if you should express your dilemma or you should just keep it to yourself.

"I'm surprised Rei let you come out the house Enji and, no, not okay in the slightest." Alright mouth, I guess you're listening to the heart and not the brain today.

"I told her that I was just coming to see you. As you can see I'm dressed casually. Anyway, do you want to talk about it?" Hmm, do you really know? Is that a good idea? You looked up at them again and they both looked like big puppies ready to jump to help. That's their heroic and genuine caring nature shining through. God, they were perfect.

"I guess I can." You huffed moving all of your stuff to the side and waiting for the two of them to take a seat. They looked up at you compliantly and- oh yeah, you're the one who has to start talking. "Well okay, so my feelings are a whole mess. My first love was Kaen and I wasn't sure if my crush on him was going to go away but, it sort of remained? Anyway, when he died that love never went away I just tucked it away in my heart to use as fuel to love the next person. Imagine my surprise when he was in fact well and alive and crashed his way right back in. The love came back and I'm pretty sure it's platonic on my side I don't know about him. Then next came Touya-" Enji choked on his sip of water before looking at you in shock

"You like my son." You felt yourself blush averting your eyes with a nervous giggle

"Hell yeah, I did. Oh my God, he is my type all the way from the moon and back. I assumed he liked me as a sister you know? So I kept those feelings at bay until they turned into something platonic. I think they're platonic though. I'm pretty sure he still likes me as a little sister and I'm overthinking." You deliberately left out the part where he kissed you smack on the lips.

"I don't think so but continue." You knew he didn't but, you had to pretend. You shrugged before continuing

"Then he comes Keigo and Rumi who swept me right off my feet and made my feelings and emotions into a knot. Jesus, they're so perfect and I don't know I feel like they could do better. Fuck I know they can do better along with Touya and Kaen. I'm just being insecure and don't know what to do with myself and all of the mixed signals are not good or maybe they're not mixed and I'm just lost." You felt yourself tugging at your hair in frustration tears threatening to fall. You felt a gentle tug on your hands before they were both encompassed by Toshi's large one.

"I'll admit that this is very confusing and I wouldn't know what to do with all of this by myself." He was rubbing your hand and you appreciated the sentiment. You knew this was something that neither man knew anything about but, you appreciated that they tried.

"It sounds like you have feelings for all four of them but the level it's at you're not too sure about." You thought about it and figured you can at the very least cross out Kaen

"I can take Kaen out of the equation. The way we acted that's how we always acted and besides he's bisexual leaning more towards guys though. Just to clear up our actions he's an only child who became an orphan at the age of 8 so it was just me and him. We always took care of each other and were there for each other." They hummed along digesting what you told them

"That makes sense now and you're right. You two act more like twins than actual lovers. Now the other issue is the three other men. Why do you like Touya." Enji inquired this as you blushed. Might as well lay it all on the table.

"Well, he was the first one I met and got dragged into your family because of it. Besides you and your wife of course. He was the first person to actually accept me and not question right off the back why I wear long sleeves and long pants in 100-degree weather. He never batted an eye at the weird sounds I made or the twitch of my tail. He just accepted me with no qualms and besides, he's really good-looking. He's brash, rude, and sarcastic but overall still a good person with an amazing heart. I was able to pick up on it. However, as I said before, I just thought he saw me the same way he saw Fuyumi so I let my crush try to pass. I don't think it fully passed to my brother/sister though for me and I feel like there is something stopping me from pursuing it possibly. That something is actually Rumi and Keigo. Those two literally hit me out of nowhere. Damn, first of all, I thought Rumi was going to kill me when I kicked him but, clearly, I'm still here." You took a breath to gather your jumbled thoughts as much as you can. "Rumi and Keigo basically forced themselves into my lives and I loved it. I thought it was so cool to be genuine friends with pros. I'll admit at first I thought they were doing it to be friendly since I worked there but then it hit me I was talking about Miruko and Hawks." They chuckled at that "Rumi doesn't give a rat's ass about anyone's opinion and also for Keigo he's very friendly and approachable but he keeps everyone two arm's length away. That's due to his training and upbringing the trash ass Hero Commission forced on him." You took another breath. It was not the time to get angry. "I love how strong they both are, they both didn't care about my looks and genuinely liked my energy. Hell, they talked to me like normal people and it was so nice. It was nice not having job personas in the way when all three of us are together it's just Y/N, Rumi, and Keigo. No Hawks, No Mirko. They're both willing to keep their chaotic energy to a minimum with me." You looked at both their faces to see if they will give away anything but, of course, they didn't. Damn pros. "I'm just so confused I like all three of them and I feel like if Touya coaxes me I'll go with him cause the feelings are there, they exist. Then Rumi and Keigo I need less coaxing but coaxing all the same causes feelings for both of them are there." You inhaled harshly before slamming your head into Toshi's hands that were still holding yours.

"I'm going to say one thing." You looked up at Toshi as he stared at you earnestly. "Whatever you choose to do. Whoever you choose to be with just know you have my blessing." You smiled softly at him tail swaying gently as he kissed your hands before letting them go.

"There is something you should know though. Two things." You turned to Enji tilting your head waiting for him to continue. "I am not sure if I'm supposed to say this...I'm going to say it anyway though..Touya likes you more than a sister." You blinked hard at that pretending you didn't already know that little piece of information. "Rumi and Keigo are dating BUT are polygamous." Now that was a shock to your system.

"They are dating and they didn't tell me." You felt hurt and betrayed for some reason. It wasn't like it was your business but then the more you thought about it the more it made sense. The casual touches, the longing stares, lingering touches on the lower back and legs and arms, how close they stood without flinching or moving. "It makes so much sense now." You looked up at them before groaning and throwing your head back. "I AM SO DAMN CONFUSED MAN" You grabbed your face squeezing your cheeks together to try to make the thoughts make sense.

"There is no rush but I do believe that you will eventually have to talk to all of them about this and figure out what ground you need to stand on." You nodded an affirmative at Enji. He was right but you worried about burning that bridge later. "Do you feel a little better now?" You thought about it and you did feel lighter. Still confused but definitely not as conflicted.

"I'm good now." They both nodded getting up.

"I and Tosh are going to head back to my house now since we aren't doing anything at the moment. If you need us we are both a phone call away." You nodded waving bye to them and with a soft click they left you with your thoughts that were quickly souring to something bitter and negative. If Rumi and Keigo were dating why they hide it from you? What was their agenda? What were they trying to hide? Are they really polygamous or did Enji say that to try and make you feel better? None of this was making sense. Did Touya know this already and was staking his claim? Why would there be a claim to stake anyway? Your thoughts kept spiraling until another knock interrupted you.

"For fucks sake who is it now." You mumbled clearing your throat before telling them to come in. You choked on air when you saw that it was Rumi and Keigo. Great. The two people you didn't want to see at the moment. "Hey Kei. Hey Rumi." You ignored the looks they gave you. Your emotions were running rampant.

"Hey, chickadee-" Ah so you're not baby bird today? "What's up?" What's up he says. He's acting so casual.

"Nothing, I'm just working as usual." You ignored the way everything was pushed to the side

"Sure doesn't look like it." You knew that was coming but it still bothered you.

"I'm taking a break clearly. Something the two of you are doing." This conversation was carrying weird energy or maybe it was just you after the bomb Enji dropped on you. You looked at both of them aware you were the one acting strange. You couldn't keep up this casual conversation without exploding.

"Are you okay Y/N?" No baby carrot of fucking course. You shouldn't be bothered. "You seem very tense." Tense he says.

"No shit captain obvious." You winced but then it turned into a frown. You saw out the corner of your eye they both stepped closer but you didn't need that right now "Don't move anymore. Both of you stay right there." They both froze and the tension began to rise. You looked up finally at both of them and they both looked genuinely confused and concerned

"Did we do something wrong?" You let out a dull chuckle shaking your head

"You know you both forgot to tell me a little detail about yourselves." You looked at them and this time it was just plain confusion. "You know, the part about dating each other." They both went stock still at that staring unblinking at you. They both looked like deer caught in the headlights. The sight gave you satisfaction and twisted your heart painfully at the same time.

"We were going to tell-" You barked out a laugh at them

"When? When it was convenient for you? When you guys were a hundred percent sure you had me in the palm of your hands? What? Tell me! Did any of the things we did mean anything to you? Or were you just using me? You know what forget it." You rubbed your face not realizing you started crying. Of course, you would cry. "I think I'm just too emotional. Yeah. I'm sorry. I keep forgetting I'm not obligated to know anything about you two. I'm not family. I'm just a really good friend. I'm okay with it. It's fine. It's all okay." You were hyperventilating and crying at the same time and when they both went to move again you held up your tail threateningly spikes on display. "Please don't come near me. Please. I'm sorry for being an inconvenience. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I just need a break. I don't know. Clearly, I mixed up the signals. Maybe I should just go with Touya instead." You were babbling now unaware of the shock and hurt on the other two occupants' faces. "Please just go. Just go. Please leave me alone." You had your head on the desk your hands in your hair sobbing. You didn't bother to look up when you heard them walk away and the door close behind them. You continued to sob needing to let out these emotions. You didn't realize that Touya had heard everything has been in the room next to yours and now he was trying to come to terms with the inner turmoil of his own emotions.

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I have decided to make three endings. The original first ending is clearly Hawks and Miruko, the second ending is going to be Touya and the third ending is going to be all three of them!