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CHAPTER 9

Alexie's Point of View

NAGTUNGO ako sa kusina ng nakaramdam ako ng gutom. I was craving for some sweets as to why I got an Idea what I'll gonna cook.

While contemplating on how to cook cookies again, I suddenly remembered my date with Dale. It was a bit off, hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong mararamdaman ko with all the fame I accumulated these fast few days after we've been showy of our so fake relationship.

Binaliwala ko na lamang ang pag iisip mula sa mga bagay bagay dahil naiirita lamang ako, weekend ngayon ka'ya dapat pinapahinga ko ang sarili patungkol sa school, well there's this one thing I should be resting about, my school works, indeed.

Tatlong araw na rin at umalis na ulit si Daddy, he can't stay here for a longer days, he's up to work and has a full and hectic schedule, hindi pa rin ako sanay na wala ang Daddy, pero kailangan naming tanggapin ang klase nang trabaho n'ya.

Mom as well worked away from us again, good thing dumating na ulit si Ate from canada.

On my way to the kitchen, I saw Axel playing video games comfortably on the big flat tv screen, si Ate ay busy sa kanyang maybe paper works sa table n'ya. She's physically here but her presence aren't.

Nakarating na ako sa kitchen at nagsimula na akong kumuha ng mga necessities for baking a cookies, I started to find somethings on the cupboard, I was happy seeing the baking tools complete, tho it's fine if it isn't but gladly it is. I just read a cook book earlier.

Nagsisimula na akong paghalu haluin ang dry ingredients then the wet next. It took me approximately four minutes and thirty minutes overall. I started to shape the dough.

"Gagawa ka pala ng cookies, hija. Hindi ka nagsabi sa akin para matulungan kita."

"Okay lang po, yaya. I can naman po."

"Sige at ako na lamang ang maglilinis ng kalat."

Napatingin ako sa kalat sa counter kung saan ako nag prepare, well I was a bit messy preparing, but I hope I didn't messed up my cookies.

I just waited a few minutes the dough were starting to get mounted a bit then became flat a seconds. Nakatayo lamang at naka pamewang habang hinihintay ang luto ko.

Kinuha ko na ang cookies na medyo umuusok pa mula sa oven, well the surface wasn't that bad, surely the taste as well.

Matapos kong maisaayos ang pag distribute sa plate ng cookies ay atat na akong tikman ang isa, I smiled when my verdic is in my favor.

"Yaya, tikman n'yo po itong luto ko." nakangiting sabi ko kay yaya habang naglilinis nang mga kalat ko.

"Hmm! Hindi na masama para sa pangalawang beses na nakakapag bake."

I felt the success about yaya's reactions, she even asked for more, I was happy.

Kinuha ko na ang glass bowl na naglalaman ng cookies at nagtungo sa living room, hindi naman ako madamot para sarilihin lamang ang pagkaing niluto ko, I could be more happier if ate and Axel would love these.

Pagtungo ko kung saan sila nakapirmi ay niyaya ko na silang kumain, ate was at first hesitant if she's gonna take a bit of the cookies since she was too preoccupied of her papers.

"Since when did you learned making these delicious cookies?" the satisfaction were lingering on ate's face as well as Axel's. I couldn't be more happier.

"Recently, well... I've been reading cook books these days,"

"You'll make a good cook, Ate." ani Axel.

Kinain na namin nang kinain ang cookies ng magkakasama, I should maximize and spend my time with them, especially to ate. We barely had a bond like this. Hindi naman kami laging magkakasama, ka'ya nababahiran ng lungkot ang pagsasama naming magkakapatid ngayon, but on the other side I was swaying away the sadness while we're together.

I scanned for a book while eating the cookies, never did not I ate while reading.

"You should have these cookies in your foundation booth," suggestion ni Ate.

Iniisip ko ngang gawan nito si Daddy since next month na ang school visit n'ya as a senator, magkakaroon ng committee events sa school next month.

"I'm going to make these for Daddy in his event next month, will you make it to school?"

Saglit akong nilingon ni Ate. "I'll try to be there, Lex." bigla akong nalungkot pero hindi ko naman hinayaang kainin ako ng lungkot ka'ya naman ay nginitian ko na lamang s'ya.

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Time has passed, the sun came down. Nagtungo na ako sa aking room matapos ang aking night routine, I was planning to read my books after I finished my school paper works.

Masaya ako ngayong araw dahil payapa ang buhay ko, may isang araw pa ako para hindi ito masira ng tuluyan. Meditation from the social media is what I'm working from now on, toxicity has been passed on me, I was even on the spotlight on school through social media just because of Dale.

I hate him for these foolishness, he jumbled through my peace. Hindi ako mag aartista ka'ya hindi ko pinapangarap na kilalanin ako ng lahat.

Hindi ko namamalayang napapasimangot ako mag isa dahil naaalala ko lahat ng kahihiyan these past few days, I have never felt this shame in my entire school life.

"Ugh, what a fuss."

Mabuti na lamang at ngayong gabi lang lumabas ang frustration ko kanina habang gumagawa ako ng food dahil kung kanina ko ito nararamdaman malamang mad-distract lang ako at masusunog surely ang ginagawa ko.

I was working so hard for tomorrow, gusto kong matikman ni Daddy at Anthony and the other staff ang cookies na gagawin ko.

I was halfway of reading my favorite book when my cellphone on the side table rang, someone's calling.

Tinatamad na kinuha ko ang aking cellphone only to find out the disaster is calling me. Guess who's I'm talking about?

Out of nowhere, I answered his damn call, he might not be talking for some senseless just for calling me. I hate when someone was interrupting my habit.

"Why?!" I answered irritated.

"Ma'am, good evening. I am I speaking with Sir Dale's girlfriend?"

Napakagat ako sa aking labi dahil hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko, ang ingay ng background dahil sa mixed rock music, it is indeed from a bar.

"Yes, why?"

"Pwede ninyo po ba s'yang sunduin dito?"

What the hell, ang laki laking tao ng isang iyon at saakin pa sila humihingi ng tulong.

Oh well, damn, ako lang naman kasi ang girlfriend ng isang ito ka'ya naman ay sa akin sila umaasa, right?

It's past 12, yet I can't say no.

It took me two minutes before answering.

"Saan po?"

"Wild quest, ma'am."

Napapikit ako, "Okay, I'll be there."

Nagdadalawang isip pa ako kung susubukan ko bang tawagan si Raikko para humingi ng tulong na sunduin si Dale, honestly I can't fetch Dale alone, seriously.

I ended up calling for Raikko and asking for his help, thankfully he answered my calls. Sinabi ko na sakanya ang pakay ko.

"Okay, I'll be there– who are you talking to Rai?"

I stopped when I heard a sheer voices of a lady obviously with Raikko. It's from his background. Napakagat ako sa aking labi, nakapagtataka namang ganitong oras ay may kasama pa ring babae si Rai.

Isn't it natural? Of being with a girl late at night or I am I just too naive?

"Busy ka ba, Rai? It's fine if you can't lend me a help."

"No, it's fine, malapit lang naman ako sa bar, susunduin na kita."

I don't know why the feeling of a pinch of a sadness suddenly run though my mind. "Okay."