Jisung thought it wasn't suitable to talk about it in the restaurant. So, after they ate uncomfortably, they moved to the car. Hyunjin didn't let Jisung sat at the back in case something happened to him again, he wouldn't be able to do anything quickly.

Hyunjin turned the car engine on, tilting his body to the side and looking straight at Jisung. "So?" and the later flinched.

Jisung bit his lips, hand scratching his arm and his eyes looking everywhere from Hyunjin to the surrounding, back and forth. "I don't remember..." He finally said, Hyunjin not quite getting what Jisung was saying. "The other day I went to the hospital and you picked me up. There was a reason"

"I didn't just go there to see a friend" Hyunjin widened his eyes, holding Jisung to inspect him making Jisung laugh on the spot. "Are you sick? Is it bad? you wouldn't die, would you? If you die what would I do--" Jisung smacked his head. "How dare you say that to me. I'm not dying. I'm alive and well. I'm going to live with you until I'm 80! Maybe even longer than you!"

Hyunjin fell into silence, he knew he shouldn't say anything since it looked like Jisung was being serious. "I don't remember how I married you, how I got my job, when Chan and Minho hyung got married or when they got a divorce, when Jeongin continued his study oversea, how Felix left 9 years ago...I don't remember any of that." Hyunjin frowned as he grabbed Jisung's hands. "What do you mean?"

"I asked the doctor and he said something about my brain erasing my memories to protect myself from bad memories. I don't know what but it could be because of stress. That's why I don't remember anything about us" Hyunjin stayed mum, trying to process everything. He didn't know whether Jisung was joking or not. If this was some kind of prank, he hoped Jisung wouldn't cross the line.

"I have amnesia...and I'm not joking. I only have my memory up from when I was 19. The next ten years? I don't know anything." He confessed, holding his own hands together. "I would understand if you start avoiding me or something but I--" Hyunjin pulled him into a hug and started crying. "How can you be so calm about this?" He asked. Jisung laughed, lifting his shoulder. "I don't know...I had lost my memories for a month and even think of divorcing you. I had a lot of other shocking things to lose my cool on."

"You want to divorce me?" Hyunjin asked, eyes redshot. Jisung shook his head. "Not anymore but you will need to bear with me for a long while. My memories will return but you can't be so sure of it"

"Also... I see you as the Hyunjin I used to hate", Hyunjin's expression became intense. He nodded and patted Jisung's head.

"you said it could be due to stress...do you know why?"

Jisung rested his forehead against Hyunjin's shoulder, "I'm not sure. It could be work or it could be something I don't even know. When dad died, I used to have nightmares of him...I tend to think a lot." He took Hyunjin's hand, playing with his fingers. "I might seem like I'm always cheerful...but I have my down to. I'm basically still 19 inside, so I remember well smiling at you guys even though I feel sad, laughing even though I feel like crying. I have a stupid mindset where I think it's my duty to be always happy and make others happy" Hyunjin pulled Jisung closer to him "It's fine to be sad, Jisung. You can tell me when you're tired, when you're sad, when you feel like crying. It's not your duty to make us happy...don't focus on others if you can't make yourself happy" Hyunjin lectured.

Jisung laughed, heartfelt, "I don't need to make myself happy, you're here to do that. Watching you acting stupid is kind of fun" Hyunjin pinched Jisung's cheek and flicked his forehead.

Jisung pulled himself away from Hyunjin, "and I'm sorry", Hyunjin tilted his head. Jisung having an amnesia was already confusing enough, he didn't know why Jisung was apologizing this time.

"Why?"

"For everything...for hating you in the past. For blaming your for everything and for being childish...", Jisung was letting go of his stupid ego. It would have been hard to tell this to Hyunjin this in the past but exactly...that was in the past. There shouldn't be any problem for him to talk about it now.

Hyunjin listened quietly. "I'm probably most sorry about this? That I can't be the Jisung who loves you?", Jisung cringed at his sentence.

He looked up at Hyunjin and heaved a sigh, "see, it's really hard for me to see you as a love interest"

It wasn't the fact that Hyunjin was a male but because he never thought of liking Hyunjin in such a way.

"The only reason I didn't ask for divorce was...", When Jisung mentioned this, Hyunjin gripped his thigh tightly, not knowing what Jisung's next word would be. Whatever it was, he knew he would end up being hurt. "...I thought maybe I would regret it once I get my memories back but even that I'm not sure..."

He laughed wryly, "I don't know how you married me but I'm pretty sure I'm not the nicest person on earth.", When he thought about the things that he could have probably done before he lost his memory, he was a bad person.

Jisung wanted to continue talking but Hyunjin had started sobbing harder than before. He reluctantly stretched his arm and patted Hyunjin's back. This guy always deliberately put him in an awkward situation. All his sweet talking that made ants crawled up Jisung's body and now this, him crying like a mess.

"Dude,I know you're weak but can you not cry like this? I already said sorry, didn't I?", Jisung avoided looking at Hyunjin, he really didn't know what to do in this situation. As much as he understood this situation, it should be him crying in frustration not Hyunjin.

The taller grabbed Jisung's shoulder and pulled him into a hug. "I'm crying because of you!! I know you're an asshole!", Jisung felt like punching Hyunjin now. "But I didn't marry you because you're some goody two shoes or anything"

"Even if you're an asshole, it doesn't mean you're a bad person you know", he was trying to comfort Jisung but it sounded as if he was insulting Jisung more and more the shorter listened to him. "It's sad that you keep thinking so low of yourself."

"But I'm not the Jisung you like you know? I'm not going to be the same", Hyunjin shook his head, his eyes look straight into Jisung's. "Jisung", the seriousness in Hyunjin's eyes made Jisung froze.

"You're enough"

"You're irreplaceable"

"You're amazing the way you are"

He gripped Jisung's shoulder tighter,
"You're Jisung but most importantly"

"You're enough"

Jisung was stuck in place. Nobody had ever say something like that. As much as he wanted to avoid this kind of situation where Hyunjin will cross the line and do something nobody ever did to him...it was too late to go back.

Maybe, his feeling was already beyond 'having him around is not that bad' statement. He wasn't quite sure what it was.

He pushed Hyunjin's face away. "Then you would be annoying", Jisung faced away.

Hyunjin was still glaring at him and Jisung raised both of his hands up. "I get it. I'm Han Jisung is just enough!"

"I won't talk down about myself again", Jisung pointed at the steering. "Weren't we going to your house?", Hyunjin blinked, regaining his sanity.

"Yeah, my bad", he rubbed his head and started driving.

"Honestly, I didn't want to come because of Kkami", Hyunjin hummed. He figured so, because it used to bite Jisung. That's why they had a fight a lot too but Kkami opened up to Jisung after few years dating. "It wouldn't bite you anymore"

Jisung nodded. He knew that much. "But I'm more afraid of meeting your parents", even before, in high school, he didn't see Hyunjin's parents a lot because they were always busy.

"There's no need to be afraid of them. They're just going to be noisy around you again", he glanced at Jisung, observing his expression. "I see...", Even if he said that, Hyunjin could clearly see that he was overthinking again.

"We can meet them any other day. I can make a turn here if you want too", Jisung shook his head, holding Hyunjin's arm. "I want to see them"

"It's not like they will hate me or anything"

Hyunjin smiled, tapping his finger on the steering and turning on the radio. "I knew you would say that"

-

When they arrived, Jisung hid behind Hyunjin and clung to him like he was his personal guard from the bunch of fluffy ball walking to them. It wasn't jumping around excitedly, he knew Kkami wasn't that cheerful but it still scared him to be around Kkami.

"Kkami won't bite you", Jisung slowly let go of Hyunjin and fixed his shirt. "I know", he coughed out.

"Jisung! Hyunjin!", A beautiful old lady appeared behind the door. You could see that despite her age, she was a beautiful lady. There was no need to question where Hyunjin inherited his look from.

Jisung was engulfed by the lady's hug, he felt like she was squeezing the hell out of his body. If he could be dramatic enough, maybe he heard his homes cracking.

"Mom, I'm your son you know", Hyunjin laughed, he was the son but he was forgotten.

"I can see you anytime I want too but I don't see Jisung often!", She pushed Jisung inside, Hyunjin following with Kkami in his hands.

"Dad is?", Mrs.Hwang looked back at her son, "drinking coffee with bunch of geezers again", her face turned into a scowl. "He's getting annoying as he grows older."

"He told me he would be home all day long today but eh went out the first thing in the morning.", She shook her head. Had it not been her sons coming home, she would probably have started a fight with her husband.

Jisung laughed awkwardly. Although he rarely see them in the past, he knew for sure that the couple was very affectionate, so, it felt weird to see her getting angry at Hyunjin's father. Things do really change sometimes.

"Did you guys eat already?", The both of them nodded but it wasn't like they didn't have more space to eat. "Well, good thing I didn't cook then"

"This brat didn't tell me you were coming today!", Mrs.Hwang said, slapping her son's shoulder.

"If you told me you were coming, maybe I would have the time to clean the house!", Jisung shook his head. "Clean what? You don't have to clean the house just because we're coming, aunty"

Mrs.Hwang looked at Jisung, bewildered. She turned to Hyunjin , " Did you give him something weird before coming here?"

"Why is he calling me aunty again?", Jisung blinked. Then what was he supposed to call her if not that. Hyunjin bent down, whispering to Jisung. "Mom. You used to call her mom"

Mom? It was difficult to call her that, especially when he wasn't that close with her.

He just smiled awkwardly and called her, "mom...I mean you don't need to clean the house just because we're coming", he corrected himself then repeated his words.

His cheeks had turned rosy from calling her mom. He wasn't used to it and Hyunjin just stared at him in amusement. It's been so long since he last saw Jisung this flustered.

"You're not flustered around me but around my mom? Really?", Seeing how Jisung was acting like himself from years ago, he saw no harm in acting like he usually does. The past 4 years, he had been restrained because how much Jisung had changed.

Jisung nudged Hyunjin with his elbow. "Why would I be flustered around you?", Hyunjin shook his head and messed Jisung's hair.

"What are you guys waiting for? Go unpack your things! Weren't you going to check your grandfather's farm after this?", Jisung raised an eyebrow and Hyunjin just shrugged.

-

So, I will just update this now. Since it's 3:33 am and whatever. I'm doing my homework. I go to school at 6 and I have major back pain.

I have been getting treatment for it but my workload is not helping me. I shouldn't have ignored my chemist online class for 3 months because I hated it. Now I'm paying for it with extra bonus which is my back pain.

Watch me go to school with my ointment and pills 🤡 I will be the kid continously using the ache ointment throughout school hours and my teachers will be smelling this ointment throughout the whole week.

Wtf my bottle just exploded. I swear I put pepsi in it and it exploded right in front of my eyes. 🤡

That aside, please take care of your health and don't be like me having backpain, bones problem at 16 👁️🔪-hunny