One day, i readed in some book that " If you strongly want something and wish for it for a long time, one day it wil come true."
But i'm a kind of person that can't strongly desire anything, even if i want something, it's still so cursory that it will quickly fade away. I'm a kind of person that can bear with most of thing. When bad things come, i will just "oh shit" then try to bear with it. My feeling fade away easily. I can't strongly feel something. Sometime it make me depressed. I feel almost emotionless. Except sadness. When i feel sad, it hurt in my chest. But only sadness, i don't even want the sadness fade away, i just think, everything will over someday and let the sadness stay. But, that is not good, i can't live on like that. What's wrong with me??