"All I gotta do is put my mind to this shit, cancel out my ex I put a line through that bitch. I like all my S's with two lines through them shits."

Alyssa King | Lyssa😇

"You have to go Lysa." Iyan said.

"I don't want to see Kailani if I can't stab her."

"Bitch who said you can't? We could be Bonnie and Bonnie in this." Ahjaya said adding in her crazy thoughts as usual.

"Shut up you bad influence but Lys we not going there for Kai, remember you have to meet your biological mother family?"

"Is there going to be food there?" I pouted.

"I don't know." Iyan said pulling me into the hallway as I sighed.

When we pulled up to the house Tac rented I started looking around and this house was really beautiful if it was better circumstances I would of loved to stay here. 

"Hey Lys- you want something? Um you good?" JJ asked as we walked in the livingroom.

They all was sitting in the livingroom like they was having a meeting or something making me sigh. Ever since they found out they have been checking on me like I'm helpless.

"JJ you the last person I'll expect to act this way. I'm okay stop acting like I'm handicap."

"Good cause I was gon kill myself if I couldn't mess with your Lil Jon and the East side boys looking ass." We laughed as Mason smiled but if you knew Mason, you could tell his smile was as fake as Olivia teeth.

I went to hug him and he held me tight and long. It's like he was saying his goodbye now and it made me tear up.

"You not gon die right?" He whispered in my ear.

"I dont know Mace I don't." I whispered back. I knew that wasn't the answer he was looking for when he slightly pushed me off of him and went out back slamming the door.

"He just need time." CJ said.

"We all do." Ace said.

"Alyssa can I talk to you?" Kailani asked.

"What you wanna talk to US about?" Ahjaya asked sitting next to me.

"Kailani you don't need to say shit to her. Not now, not never." Iyan said. She looked kind of taken back, I guess she didn't expect him to say anything rude.

"Alyssa please." I looked at her then at Tac nodding. I knew he wanted peace and neither one of us needed to be stressed out so I agreed walking to a room with her.

"First let me apologize, I'm sorry-"

"Kailani save your apology and say what you have to say. No words will ever get us back to us."

"Alyssa I was jealous. Every time I talked to Yayo he would he like 'I can't Lys need me' or 'I can't, I'm busy with Alyssa'. I know I was wrong but hearing your name every five seconds and him always canceling out on me for you had my insecurities coming out."

"And as a best friend you step up to me like a real bitch and ask me what the fuck is going on but you wanted to be a coward and act like a booty bitch starting a revolution with Olivia."

"Lys c'mon if I didn't know you and saw how Iyan act with you than I would think y'all was together too."

"That's the thing Kai, you do know me pretty well actually and you ruined our friendship over a boy."

"Not just a boy, my boy! Alyssa I try and try and he could just never love me how I want him too. I just want him to love me how much I love him."

"You can't force love, Iyan loves you but look at the way you act you got a lot of growing up to do."

"So that's it? You just giving up?"

"What do you want me to say? You wished death on both me and my baby, Kai you lost a baby before so why would you wish that pain on someone else? I don't need that stress you put in my life."

"It's like that?"

"Just like that." I said walking out.

Maybe I was being a little insensitive but right now Kailani is the least of my worries, she's one less person I have to worry about right now.

"You good?" Yayo asked as he fluffed a pillow behind me.

"Always."

I looked around to see everybody looking at me so I started looking around my eyes landing on Tadoe. I laughed loudly, I didn't mean to but I did. He had a black eye and busted lip, I didn't even have to ask what happened. JC put the paws on him

"Fuck you Alyssa." Tadoe said mugging me.

"I love you more." I smiled blowing a kiss at him but he still mugged me.

"So we not going to talk about this? We not gon talk about how she could be dying in a couple months?" Ike stood up glaring.

"Ike your overreacting just-" G started to say.

"Overreacting? That's not your sister! You didn't stay up all those nights with her when it was thundering because her punk ass was scared, those nights waiting for her to fall asleep first then you, every time a boy disrespected, making sacrifices just so she can be happy! So don't fucking tell me how I should be acting." Isaac yelled. It was complete silence, nobody knew what to say until Ahjaya spoke up.

"I get where you coming from because I feel the same but adding more stress on her isn't helping. You can't guilt her into changing her mind, she needs to be happy and never questioning herself."

"And if anybody in this room adds on to her stress then y'all simply can't talk to her, I got her she'll be good without y'all." Iyan said.

"It's no other option?" JC spoke for the first time since yesterday.

"I can abort Dot or have Dot." I said.

"So it is a option? Why are we even talking about having a baby that can kill you when you can be okay and try again?" Olivia asked.

Bitch why are you talking? 😐

"Do y'all not see how hard y'all making this on her? Y'all don't think she thought about this, all the possibilities? Y'all pressuring about it isn't helping anyone." Alli said standing up.

"I just don't get it, your willing to put your life on the line for a baby that's barely here. I understand you got a emotional attachment already and that's your baby but Alyssa you twenty fucking one, you have your whole life to make babies. You barely started your career." JJ said glaring at me.

I started tearing up, they just won't understand until they are put into my situation. This is the hardest decision I ever had to make and nobody supporting my decision makes this 10x harder.

"I'm having my baby. I'm going to be okay, I promise."

"You always giving false hope." Ike bitterly chuckled and I felt tears coming down my face as I wiped them but they kept coming down.

"Since you keep dropping promises like they mixtapes, can you promise you not gon die?" Mason asked.

"No one can promise that, we all have to die someday."

"Logical, can you promise that in seven months this baby can't kill you?" CJ asked.

I didn't say anything because I couldn't promise that or I might be breaking it. I saw JC shake his head as he walked in the back and seconds later I heard a door slam making a picture fall off the wall.

"Alyssa you ready?" Tac asked breaking the awkward silence.

"Yes." I whispered. Yayo helped me up then Me, Alli, Isaac, JJ, Yayo, Ahjaya and Tac went to get in the car. We were going to meet my grandparents and I was kind of nervous, what if they don't like me? What if I don't like them? It was just a whole lot of questions.

"Lysa?"

"Hm?"

"You been out of it the whole car ride, you okay?" I looked out the window to see a 3 story white, gold and black house. It was so pretty and I wondered if my grandparents were rich.

"I'm okay daddy."

"I support you princess, if nobody got you I do. My granddaughter is going to be perfect just like her beautiful mother and you'll be there to witness it." Tac hugged me as we both got out of the car.

I rung the door bell and wiped my hands on my pants nervously, once the door opened a brownskin lady as tall as me with a high ponytail, she had on reading glasses and a big ole kool aid smile on her face.

"Hey Jahidah." Tac hugged her.

"Hey everyone." She said but when her eyes got to me her eyes started watering. "You must be Alyssa, wow."

"Hi.." I trailed off not knowing what to call her.

"You can call me mama Hi" I nodded and she pulled me in for a hug opening the door wider as I heard music and a bunch of people letting me know they were having a party.

"You guys can walk around and stuff, the food is out back and it's a bunch of games and stuff." MamaHi said.

"Shit don't got to tell me twice." Tac said walking with JJ, Cameron and Alli.

I looked around at the pictures on the wall and I saw this one particular picture. I automatically knew this was my mother, she looked exactly like me.

"She was beautiful." Ahjaya said looking at the picture.

"That's your twin, dead for real." Iyan said.

"She was around your age in that picture, that's the day when she came home to tell us she was pregnant." MamaHi said coming into the livingroom.

"Can you tell me what she was like?" I asked.

"She was nice to people sometimes a little too nice, she was so goofy and always kept a smile on her face, she was very popular in school and college, she loved dancing and was on the cheerleading team since she could walk but she wanted to be a nurse so she went to school for that."

"It's like she just described your whole life." Iyan said.

"Really we had so much in common" I said.

"She loved you very much Alyssa, everyday while she was pregnant she went to get different things. Toys, clothes, bottles, you name it and she got it. She said she never wanted you to have to struggle for anything."

"If you don't mind me asking, how did she die?" Ahjaya asked.

"One day at work she collapsed and she had to get an emergency C-section and she bled out on the table. We later found out she had Placenta Previa and never told us." I looked down and Iyan rubbed my back.

"Uh oh did I say something wrong? I'm sorry I thought that you would want to know." She said sensing we were uncomfortable.

"No it's not you, it's just Alyssa is pregnant and have placenta previa." Iyan explained and MamaHi grabbed her chest and shook her head.

"I'm sorry I wouldn't have told the story if I would have known."

"It's okay really. I understand my mother risked her life for me and I'm doing the same."

"Bless your heart. You are your mother's child, she would be so proud of you." I started to tear up and MamaHi pulled me into a hug.

"Thank you." I told her.

"I should be thanking you for coming but how about I put some food in you, can't be having my great-grandbaby food deprived." She said touching my small bump, I nodded and smiled I was starving.

The party was so fun I played a few games before I had to sit down and I met most of my mom's family and it was a lot of them. I'm not use to being around family because Tac family didn't like that he was a king pin and they thought they would be in danger so they cut him off.

My mom has a lot of family, I met all of her aunts, uncles, cousins and all 13 of her brothers and sisters. They was all so welcoming, it's like they all accepted me with no problem and they loved the fact that I was fluent in French since most of them were.

"Thank you for having us." Tac said to MamaHi.

"Anytime, I still gots to get my rematch from that cheater over there."

"Anytime, any place old lady." Ahjaya said laughing.

"65 and glamorous chiii." MamaHi said as I smiled. "Alyssa I want you to take this."

"What is it?" I asked as she handed me a treasure box.

"It's a bunch of things your mother left you, it'll help you get to know her better." I nodded my head and thanked her and hugged her one last time. We exchanged numbers then I hopped in the car.
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Once we got in the house I looked around and nobody was in the livingroom but I heard laughing so I went in there. Mace, CJ, Ike, Ace and Aubree was in the kitchen.

"Hey babymomma." Ike said to Ahjaya, he knew she hate being called that.

"Hey little shriveled shrimp dick dirty Hurricane Chris ay bay bay pistol grip chin ass nigga." Ahjaya said in my one breath, I looked at Isaac face and started rolling.

"She said Hurricane Chris ay bay bay." Mason was crying.

"That use to be my shit tho." Aubree said dabbing.

"Wanna know what we say in the club?" Iyan started.

"Ay bay bay." We all yelled.

"White folks, gangsters in the club."

"Ay bay bay." We yelled again.

"If y'all don't shut the hell up, y'all putting Cameron back to sleep." Allison cut her eyes at us.

"Who Cameron? His name Bameron Blood." Ahjaya said. I didn't laugh until I saw Mason face, his faces always the funniest.

"Why your face like that?" Ahjaya asked laughing.

"His name Cameron cuz." Mason said crip walking.

"Hell nah you win." Ahjaya started laughing.

"On a serious note go talk to JC, nigga so depressed. Ever since we been in Miami nigga been in his room, you know you that nigga Antidote." Isaac said.

"Thought y'all wasn't cool." Ahjaya said.

"We Gucci, that's my brother. Brothers fight." Isaac shrugged.

"Lysa go talk to that nigga, got him acting like a female." JJ said laughing, I sighed but I knew I couldn't avoid him forever.

I walked towards his room but didn't go in, I was nervous. He wouldn't even look me in my face earlier and JC was quiet. JC quiet is worst than him talking because you never know what he thinking. Finding the courage I opened the door, he was laying face down listening to PARTYNEXTDOOR x Recognize.

Aw, that's our song😩

"Mace if you come in here and tell me one more of your knock knock jokes imma punch you in your throat." JC yelled without looking up.

I tucked my lips in to keep from laughing, Mace stupid ass swear telling his knock knock jokes could cheer somebody up. His favorite one was the interrupting cow, shit was annoying.

I walked in further and closed the door behind me. My feet was hurting so I sat down in the chair waiting for him to look up.

"Mace get the fuck out before you be breathing through a straw and- Lys what you doing?" He asked finally looking up.

"Let's talk...."
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I swear I love some of y'all up here, y'all really the reason I update everyday lmao I fucks with y'all dead for real.

JC so fine😍😍😍😍

Hella heart eyes for the kid😍😍😍

But on a serious note if you live in Georgia can you come bring me some food? My mother bitching, not tryna cook😕

Random fact I can't dance to save my life, like I be trying but that's just one skill I'll never have😩

But on my soul I be bodying my Milly Rock😂😂 only dance I could do💀💀

Yeah excuse any mistakes😇