It's six in the morning and here I am admiring Leo as he peacefully sleeps, his mouth partly opened. I'm sitting on the couch across the bed he's currently laying on. I can't help, but want to slap myself across the face for spilling out those three words that aren't suppose to be horrible whatsoever. However, in my case it's tragically horrible. How can I love someone like him after everything that has happened between us?

Sure, he's been great lately, but that still doesn't change what he is or all of the bad things he's done to me. I knew I had a strong unexplainable attraction for him, but never did I think I would love this man.
Explains all of my stupidity though. But that's not what's eating me in pure embarrassment right now shockingly. It's the fact that I said it first.

Last night, after I breathed those words out, Leo looked shocked completely taken back by what I threw at him. What ached my heart a little was the fact that he dismissed it not that I expected for him to say it back of course. I just didn't expect to get ignored either. However that's exactly what happened as Leo rolled on to the side of the bed crashing out instantly leaving me drowning in my own thoughts. I hated myself for saying it, but I can't entirely blame myself since the orgasm completely possessed me and crap slipped out of my mouth from the maximum pleasure I experienced.

It's all Leo's fault for making me orgasm like never before. What was said I can't take back no matter how much I wish I could. As I scold myself, a light bulb lights up inside of my head. Maybe it wasn't such a complete mistake. This can very well make him trust me using it to my full advantage for when the day comes, the day I'm anxiously awaiting for.

"Madison," Leo hoarsely mumbles rubbing his half sleepy eyes to fully awake. Instantly, I snap out of my thoughts peering directly at him still embarrassed from last night.

"G-good morning," I mumble awkwardly.

"Why are you sitting over there?," Leo creases his dark brows at me fully awake now.

"Morning sickness," I hastily lie.

The perks of being pregnant is that I can lie about mostly everything.

"It'll pass... get ready we're going out for breakfast then adventuring Italy," he says getting off of the bed and straight into the shower. I grunt to myself rolling my eyes for even having the slightest hope that he would actually acknowledge what happened last night, but as usual, I'm wrong.

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Leo's pov

The moment I rolled onto the side of the bed not saying a word after Madison spoke about her inner feelings for me after I gave her one hell of an orgasm, I knew I fucked up. Hearing her say those three words I'm suppose to be immune to made my heart hot and cold at the same damn time. I guess if I'm going to be honest here, I felt terrified. Terrified from the fact that this perfection of a woman can actually love me, a monster. Madison is everything that's beautiful and pure in this sick world we live in today. Especially from my world of pain, blood, and darkness.

Who am I kidding why am I so shocked? I practically kidnapped her to have her, held her against her will then I got her pregnant with my first child, and ultimately practically forced her to marry me. What did I expect? For her to not feel shit? For her to be stuck with me without any emotions? I will fully admit, I'm completely stunned never did I think she would actually love me after all the bullshit I've put her through.

Is this a good thing? It should be, I feel happy that she loves me. It's not like I want her to love someone else who isn't me if she did, I'd kill them. Madison is mine and only mine. So why the fuck did I not say shit in return? I clearly feel something strong for her than just a like. What am I so scared of?

I'm so fucked up.

She deserves better than me, but the thought of that kills me. I can't let her go even though I know she's better off without a monster like myself. However, I can't cut the string with her especially not now that she's carrying my child. I honestly don't know if I can even be without her.

We're at a restaurant that Gio recommended for us to try. It's a hot day today, so Madison decided to wear a red bikini bra and her jean shorts. As we sat down, I couldn't help but notice how huge her boobs look. For only being four months pregnant. Her breasts have definitely grown.

"This yogurt is so good," Madison says showing me her plate that consisted of cut up strawberries, bananas, and raspberries topped with almonds, granola, and raisins. I must say it looks good, but my attention is intently focused on something else and let's just say it isn't the plate.

"Almonds are great for the baby's brain development."

"Leo"

"Oh my god, are you staring at my breasts?" Hearing Madison snap her fingers towards my face causes me to snap out of my state averting my eyes away from her breasts.

"My bad, it's just they're so big... They grew a lot," I apologize.

"If you'd listened to Luna about reading the baby books she got you. You would of known it's a part of the pregnancy," Madison grumbles.

"I provide the money. Everything else is you," I bluntly reply.

Madison's pov

"You're so supportive... Not," I roll my eyes at Leo.

"I'm very supportive actually. Let's not forget how I was there for you last night," he mischievously smirks giving me a wink.

"Hardly," I murmur lowly not realizing how loud I actually said it.

"Excuse me?," Leo raises a brow.

"I meant hush. I don't want anyone hearing about our sex life," I lie.

"Yeah, We don't want all these women wanting a taste of your husband right?," he grins. I roll my eyes at his cockiness, which I'm not at all doubting. He's extremely handsome, so I'm sure any woman would want a taste of him especially since he's very talented in bed, I must admit.

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"This beach is beautiful."

After breakfast, Leo brought us to a beach that Gio was nonstop chattering about. Now I see why, it's beautiful almost too perfect for it to actually be real. The sand is khaki looking so bright not a single trash on it unlike some beaches I've been to before. The ocean is the perfection of blue and aqua mixed together sparkling underneath the bright yellowish sun. Seagulls fly over the sea in groups just giving the whole beach experience an extra touch to it.

"Come on let's go get some drinks," Leo says intertwining his fingers with mine walking towards a tiki bar on the sand.

"Two coconuts," Leo orders. The young surfer girl attending us is flirtatiously glancing at Leo as she prepares our coconuts. I watch her silently not knowing whether to be offended or just brush it off. After all it is Leo.

"Here you go handsome," she smiles showing her perfect white teeth handing over the coconuts. Not waiting for another minute to see this desperate chick throw herself towards Leo. I go ahead and grab my coconut turning my heel walking away towards the beach leaving them both behind.

"Madison," Leo shouts from behind me, but I ignore his call until I feel his hand grasp my arm bringing me to a halt.

"You know I wasn't paying no attention to her right?," Leo says a concerned expression plastered on his face.

"Leo, you don't have to explain anything to me. It's cool, I know you love women," I blankly say.

"That was before I met you," he almost instantly responds leaving me a bit impressed. I stare at his chocolate brown eyes noticing how they're brighter in the sunlight making them look light brown. I crease my brows slightly not so sure about his words. Leo is so hot and cold that I just don't ever know when he's being real.

"Let's go take a seat," I divert the conversation looking for a small area where we can sit down and sip on our cold coconuts, while enjoying the view of this beautiful place. Leo does as I say dropping the conversation not like I expected him to hold onto it either way.

"I made you an ultrasound appointment here in Italy," Leo informs me as we sit on the sand.

"What? Why in Italy?," I ask confusedly taking a sip of my coconut.

"You're four months it's time to check for the gender," he explains.

"Do you think it's enough time to be able to find out?," I curiously ask.

"Should be... Shit, it better be," Leo murmurs. I crease my dark brows at him confused on how persistent he is about finding out the baby's gender.

"When is the appointment?"

"Later today." My eyes somewhat widen from the short notice of this appointment, "that quick? And you're barely telling me now?," I grumble.

"You seem to forget who I am... All it takes is one phone call and things goes to my convenience. I thought you'd be happy?," Leo smirks confidently.

"I have the right to know ahead of time Leo. I'm the one pregnant not you," I unhappily respond.

"I don't understand why you're mad. Don't you want to see our creation and know it's sex?," he raises a brow.

"Of course I do, but a little notice ahead of time would be appreciated," I bluntly spat turning around looking straight at the ocean.

"Don't tell me you're mad at your baby daddy?," Leo wraps his muscular arms around my waist pulling me back against his muscled bare chest. The touch of him sends uncontrollable tingles all over my body as my heart thumps faster from excitement.

"Leo," I sternly say.

"You know if it's a boy. I'm going to name him after me," he murmurs near my ear feeling his hot breathe hit against my neck.

"I-I suppose that would be adorable," I mumble.

"I love how you get when I'm near you this close," he steers the subject biting onto my earlobe softly. I gasp, from the sudden sexual action. This man really does know how to turn me on without a doubt or maybe it's how sensitive I've become due to this pregnancy.

"It's the pregnancy," I hastily breathe smacking his hand that somehow traveled down to my most sensitive area on my body.

"Sure it is, blame it on the baby. I'm going to make your green eyes roll to the back of your head whil-"

"Hello boss."

Leo and I both snap our heads up towards the shadowy figure that's currently blocking our sunlight as well as completely disrupted our little seductively moment we had going on. Which I'm quite pissed about to be honest.

"Are you serious?," I grit my teeth locking eyes with those ocean blue eyes I hate so much.

"Rossi, what the hell are you doing here?," Leo hisses his arms still wrapped around my waist, which I must say, I'm pretty stunned about. I would think he would let go off me immediately in the presence of his female employee he played poker with before, but he didn't and that sort of brings happiness to me. Okay fine, it brings great joy in my heart.

"I have something to tell you," Rossi bluntly says her arms crossed on her chest as she send death glares down at me.

"I'm busy on my fucking honeymoon with my wife. Whatever you have to tell me. We can talk about it back at home," Leo scolds unwrapping his arms from me standing up on his feet clenching his fists on his sides.

"It's very important Leo. Either give me the time of day to hear me out privately or I'm going to scream it," Rossi threatens Leo.

"I'll deal with you at home. Now get out of here before I lose my temper," Leo warns. I stand up from the sand awkwardly standing close to Leo rolling my eyes at Rossi for of course making it her mission to come all the way to Italy to just get under my skin.
The next words that slipped out of her lips made my eyes bulge out of my sockets becoming speechless. My heart completely shattering falling down to my stomach.

"I'm pregnant."