this chapter make me so soft
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"Ask away."

There hadn't been many times in his lifetime that Jimin had genuinely felt scared, but right then, as he sat with Jungkook on the same bed they had kissed on, he was shaking.

Jungkook had succeeded, taken Jimin by surprised and followed through on the challenge that he had given him. There weren't many words spoken between the two of them afterwards. Maybe it was due to shock, disbelief that he had actually done it. Maybe they were both just trying to organize their thoughts as best they could before they spoke
again.

Yoongi had picked them up, as he usually did, and the car ride home was near agonizing. It was painfully clear that there was tension between the two of them, Yoongi sparing glances at Jimin and Jungkook once in awhile as they both stared wordlessly out the window.

He had dropped them off at Jimin's house, before speeding away and leaving the two of them alone again. Being alone with one another, was becoming more and more dangerous nowadays though, and Jimin realized that as he sat side by side with Jungkook on his bed.

"Why did you kiss me?" Jungkook asked softly, his voice being the only sound in the room besides the tick of Jimin's bedside clock. The question stung, painful because Jimin knew that he really didn't have anyway to back out this time. He had to confront this, he needed to speak.

Jimin took a moment to collect his thoughts, scanning his gaze across the younger male's face. Why did he kiss him? The real question, was why wouldn't he? He didn't know how it took him so long to notice, Jungkook was breathtaking. The younger male sat next to him with his legs pulled up to his chest, eyes wide as he waited for Jimin to answer him. His eyes sparkled, the setting sun filtering in through casting a glow of gold and pink over his features.

His lips were so plump, parted slightly as he watched Jimin analyze him. Jimin had to restrain himself from lunging forwards right then and capturing the younger boy's lips in a kiss once more, knowing that this was probably the only time his heart would be open enough to spill the truth.

Jimin felt his heart pound quicker, the longer he looked at Jungkook. He sighed softly, reaching forwards and brushing a few pieces of hair out of Jungkook's eyes.

"I think you're gorgeous." He whispered, goosebumps pricking up on his skin as a gust of wind blew in through the open window. A huge weight lifted off of his chest as he spoke, the truth finally leaving his lips for the first time in what felt like forever.

He watched as Jungkook's eyes widened, his face slowly shifting to a pinker tone as Jimin's words sunk into his brain. Gorgeous? Since when?Jungkook shakily brought his hand up, placing it on top of Jimin's.

He wanted Jimin's lips on his again so badly. Jimin's voice was so soft and smooth, teasing Jungkook with the memories that his touches were just as gentle. It was something that maybe he shouldn't want, something that he knew Taehyung would probably scold him for, but in that moment nobody else truly mattered other than Jimin.

Jimin's words made his heart dance within his chest, a smile tugging at his lips without him even realizing it. It was just four simple words, but they meant the world to him.

"Then why haven't you told me until now?" Jungkook asked softly, gently rubbing his thumb against the back of Jimin's hand. He watched as the older male bit his lip, before breathing out a deep exhale.

"Because it's more than that, Jungkook." Jimin breathed out, the floodgates of his heart finally breaking down and allowing all of his emotions to pour out of him. "I found myself enjoying just being around you, and just listening to you talk."

He spoke softly, finding the courage within him to look into the younger male's eyes as he did so. If he was going to say this, he needed Jungkook to know that he meant it. "I... I get excited now, when I know I'm going to see you, instead of dreading it like I used to." He paused, watching as Jungkook's bottom lip quivered slightly. "Most of all, I... I care about you, and I want to be with you."

It felt like a sack of bricks had been lifted off of Jimin's shoulders, a light, airy feeling exploding in his chest as he uttered out a haphazard confession to the male in front of him. It felt wrong to say, but it also felt so right to have Jungkook finally know how he truly felt. He didn't realize how much energy had been using to keep his feelings at bay, until then.

"You should have just said that in the first place." Jungkook smiled softly, reaching down to curl his fingers around Jimin's hand. "Did you think I would turn you down?"

Jimin shook his head, and it made Jungkook a little embarrassed to know that his feelings for Jimin were that obvious.

"I was afraid you weren't going to turn me down." Jimin spoke, trying to control to butterflies in his stomach as Jungkook's fingers drew invisible patterns against the skin of his hand. "I shouldn't like you, Jungkook. That's the whole issue here."

Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows together, expression telling that he didn't understand the older male's words.

"Who told you that, hm?" He asked, looking into Jimin's eyes with eyes that were coated in confusion. "If you want to be with me, be with me. That's all I want, nothing more."

Jimin's heart jumped in his chest, and he sighed softly. Jungkook's words were so sweet, coaxing the truth out of him as if it were nothing. The younger boy's eyes swam with adoration as he looked at Jimin, watching as the older male tried to form an answer.

The sun sank lower into the horizon the more they spoke, painting the room in a variety of hues as they spilled their hearts out.

"Jungkook, you don't get it." Jimin sighed, looking to the side to avoid Jungkook's gaze. "It just won't work, with what we do together. You could get hurt, or we could split up, there are just too many unknowns to think of us being together as an option." It hurt him to say, and at this point it almost felt like he was reading a script. Did he mean the words he said? He just wanted Jungkook so badly, that he felt as if his mindset had changed.

He had told himself so many times that romance wasn't something he had time for, but the longer he knew Jungkook the more he wanted to make time for it.

"If you lived your life avoiding everything that might have a bad outcome, then you wouldn't be doing anything at all." Jungkook finally answered softly, slowly intertwining his fingers with Jimin's. He couldn't help but notice how his fingers seemed to slot within Jimin's perfectly, as if they were mean to be there. The contact made Jimin's heart stutter. "Getting hurt is something I haven't been afraid of since I met you. Any risks that come with you, I've already accepted."

Jungkook reached upwards, cupping Jimin's face with his hand and caressing the older male's cheeks gently. The sun had now set, and it was becoming darker and darker in the room they both sat in. "What do you say Jimin? If you turn away, I'll accept it. But is that really what you want?" He stared into Jimin's eyes, his fingers slipping though the older male's hair. "You have no idea how gorgeous you are, when you take off the emotionless mask you like to wear so often. I'd just like to see it more."

Jimin melted in Jungkook's touch, the younger boy's words making his legs feel weak. If he wasn't already sitting, he was sure he would have stumbled. Jungkook's thumb rubbed against his cheek softly, bringing with it a wonderful feeling of comfort and care.

"What if something happens to me?" Jimin couldn't help but ask, as it was the last protest he had against the matter. "What would you do?"

He watched as Jungkook thought for a moment, humming softly.

"Well if you're going down for something, I'm probably going down with you." Jungkook answered softly, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. "So, don't worry about me too much, okay?"

Jimin found himself smiling as well, leaning into Jungkook's touch and breathing out a sigh. How could Jungkook do this so easily? Being with him, being touched by him like this, it felt so natural.

"Okay." Jimin breathed out, bringing his own hand up to cup Jungkook's face.

They were so close, and Jimin felt his heartbeat quicken as he slowly brought the younger male's face closer to his. Completely sober this time, there would be nothing to hinder what Jungkook truly felt like. This was both intimidating, and exciting, because he wanted nothing more than have Jungkook on the sheets beneath him once again.

Jungkook breathed out a shaky breath, and it fanned across Jimin's lips before they made contact. It was just as exhilarating as the first time, if not more. Though the guilt he felt hadn't completely disappeared, it had subsided enough for him to kiss Jungkook without feeling like he was doing something he wasn't supposed to.

Slowly, their lips moved against each other in tune to their own personal rhythm. Jungkook's lips were so soft, just like Jimin had remembered. He had craved to have Jungkook like this again, letting out a soft noise as he pressed forwards and deepened the kiss. His tongue slipped past Jungkook's parted lips, sliding against to cold metal of the younger male's piercing.

The soft noises that slipped out of Jungkook were delicious, and Jimin drank them up. He fisted his hand in the back of Jungkook's hair, curling his finger into the soft brunette strands. Everything about Jungkook was soft. His hair, his skin, his lips. He was just so enticing, every shy touch and every moan he couldn't hold back just spurring Jimin on give him more and more.

He slipped his other hand underneath Jungkook's shirt, feeling the younger male's muscles tense up at the touch. Jimin grazed his fingers across the skin of Jungkook's abdomen so gently it was barely noticeable - but it was enough to have Jungkook shivering and pulling Jimin impossibly closer.

It felt so good, and so right, like it was meant to happen.

And for the first time in his life, Jimin followed his heart instead of his mind.

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