Riku was eating with her brothers that morning while chatting about many things. It's been four days since Riku has stayed. There is a time she'll contact her member by text and they told her almost everything when she's gone.

She also often texts or just hears Tenn sing when she can’t sleep. But these past two days she started to talk to him beside texts. Of course it makes Tenn happy and will always spend his free time for her, no matter if he barely finished his jobs or at the break.

“You look better these past days” comment Nara smiled teasingly, “did something good happen? About your friends?”

“I'm not talking with them yet, I just texted them because thinking about their voice, other guys' voices beside you still send a chill to me” said Riku smiling, “but it's still nice to talk with them even though I'm troubling them right now. At least it can lift my mood”

“Ah, but I'm sure that's not what makes you happier,” said Mana.

“I talked with Tenn-nii,” said Riku cheerfully.

The other two look at her blinking, “err, did you mean texted?” Asked Nara make sure he heard wrong.

“No Nii-san, I talked to him. Not at the beginning but it's still nice when I think about our conversations these past two days” said Riku munching her food happily, “or maybe before that” said her next.

“You're not afraid, Kitten?” Asked Mana even though his face remind flat Riku can sense his worry. She smiled assuredly at him and it was enough to convince them that she's fine.

They're happy about Riku's better development and will make sure that they'll thank Tenn later, even though they'll lie if they say that they're not jealous.

“Still refuse to talk with us about that, Omu-chan?” Nara suddenly made the Riku movement stop. She looks at Nara who looks at her back while raising his eyebrow.

She averted his gaze and didn't say anything. Nara sighs at this and looks to Mana for help. Mana shook his head and signed him to stop.

“You can tell us when you're ready, okay?” Said Mana softly while ruffling her hair.

---

Riku is currently in her room texting with Tenn.

Tenn-nii, can I call you now

Of course, i'm free this afternoon so i'll be happy if you call me

Okay

Riku called his number,

“Hello Riku. What're you doing this far?”

“Talk with you obviously,” joked Riku.

*chuckle* “yes of course and you know that's not what I mean”

*giggles* “Well, I'm doing nothing right now” said Riku while rolled over so now she is facing the ceiling.

“So I just here to cure your boredom?” asked Tenn teasingly

“That's the reason, but the big one is because I really miss you even though we texted and talk almost every days” said Riku confidently

Tenn laughed a little and said, “I'm happy to hear that. You always made my day”

“Why thank you for that, what about you? You're doing fine? You're not fighting with Gaku-san, right?” asked Riku with a scolding tone.

“Everything is fine, why did you suspect that I fought with Gaku? We're get along well” Tenn said innocently

“Sure you are, get along well to the point you always teased or sometimes insulted him. That's not a good thing to do, I start to felt sorry for Gaku-san” said Riku rolled her eyes

“Well, I do that because he deserved it” said him as if it's nothing wrong

They laugh at each other.

“Riku” his serious tone made Riku stop laughing, “yes?”

“Not telling your brothers yet?” Riku knew what he meant and hummed. “Not ready”

*sigh* “What about I'll tell them for you?” offered Tenn.

“I don't know, you sure with that?” asked Riku back not sure

“Soon or later you have to tell them. And hearing you right now, I'm sure it's not gonna be soon. So let me tell them”

“Well if you feel like that, do tell them for me. I think it's better if I tell them myself but I just can't. So please lean your hand for me”

“Of course Riku, I'll lean it whenever you need. Ah, but I don't have their number” said Tenn with a soft voice which make Riku smile

“Why does no one have theirs? The other also asked for it and if I quote back ‘Tenn will kill us if we don't have at least one of their contact’ did you said something to them?” asked Riku amused

“I'm afraid that I don't know what you mean” Riku giggled at his sentence.

“Hmm, but isn't it better if I tell them directly? Not from the phone but…” said Tenn next thoughtfully

“I don't know about that. You can do what it's a better choice. But do you have time to come here?” asked Riku back.

Riku heard a ruffling voice from the other side before Tenn sighs, “I don't. Look like I has to tell them through the phone”

“Take your time Tenn-nii”

“Aren't that my line?” Riku just laughed at that.

They continue to talk with each other about light subjects.

“You talk with your members?” asked Tenn curiously.

“Not yet” answered Riku, “it's still terrified me but I planning to call them this night or tomorrow”

“Well, good luck with that but don't force yourself if you're not ready,” reminds Tenn, “but Riku…”

“Yes?”

“I didn't mean to press you but are you sure you want to continue your job? This'll not just affect your members but also your fans and maybe worse is your agency. I'm worries about you and isn't it better if you stop being an idol?” said Tenn slightly worried

Riku did not immediately answer him and lost in her mind. Her brother is right, if it continues like this she is just being a burden for the other. She won't be troubling them but she also won't lose them. They were her first friends and she wanted to treasure them all.

If only she can control herself better, it may not end like this.

“...ku”

“…riku…”

“Are you still there Riku?  listening?” Tenn's voice brings her back to reality.

“A-ah, sorry Tenn-nii” said Riku guilty

Tenn sigh at the other side, “don't think to much about that, sorry I shouldn't said it at the beginning”

“I don't know Tenn-nii. I still want to be by their side, sing with all of them. I don't want to lose them Tenn-nii. What should I do? I won't being a burden but I also won't to be rid of them” Said her sadly

“Riku, you are never a burden and I'm sure your other members don't think that way,” said Tenn, “why don't you call them tonight? Maybe it can make you feels better” suggested Tenn

Riku singh, “okay, i'll try it” Tenn wanted to say something but Riku cutted him, “and i'll make sure to tell you the result” even though he can't see her, he knows that Riku was smiling.

Tenn smiled at that, “oh? Did you become an esper now?” Said him jokingly

Riku laugh, “maybe I followed your path”

They laughed together and didn't realize that they had already spent a long time together. Tenn said his goodbye because it was the time for him to go for his job.

---

That night Riku stared at the ceiling in her room. She is considering whether she should call her member or not but she's already promised Tenn that she'll call them. Didn't like thinking too much, Riku sighs and dials Iori’ number.

There is a long wait to make Riku wonder if she called them at the wrong time? She's sure already checked the schedule and they have a free night today.

She almost ended the call but Iori answered it.

“Akihiro-san? I'm sorry, i'm busy with study and didn't know you called because I set my phone in silent”

Riku takes a deep breath before, “ah, sorry. Did I disturb you?” asked Riku with a soft voice. He doesn't know why he smiles at her voice and thinks that he may miss it. All the tiredness he felt before seemed to disappear.

“No you're not. I'm kind of glad that you called me. I think I need a break” heard Riku giggled and made Iori can't hold his smile.

“Well you have to thank me then” said her jokingly. ‘Cute’ thought Iori. “Did you say something Iori?” Riku made Iori embarrassed that he said it out loud.

“It's nothing. It was unusual, why did you call me?” Asked Iori change the subject.

“Ah…” there is a gap silent. “Akihiro-san?”

“There’s a lot of thoughts in my mind. I think it'll make me feel better if I talk with you or the other” said Riku slowly.

Her tone makes Iori slightly worried, “what's that? You want to talk about it with me?” Asked him straightly.

“Iori, am I a burden for you guys?” Asked her suddenly.

Iori frowned, “what's with the sudden question? Why do you think like that? Did you consider yourself as our burden?” Asked him to scold her.

“I don't know” said Riku decently

“What do you mean you don't know?” Demanded Iori

Riku sigh, “It was complicated Iori, I tried not to think that way but can't help myself to think like that when…when…”

Riku didn't finish her sentence and Iori can imagine her sullen face. Iori pulled away his phone and chuckled lightly. He pulled it close again and said, “If you want me to be honest, I'll say that you caused us a lot of trouble because of your absence. I wish you have something prepared as a thank you gift and sorry”

“Aren't you being mean to me? You always like that if it was me” even though he can't see her, he can tell that she's pouting. Iori's hand twitched as if she's there, he'll pinch her check. Iori shook his head after that thought came across his mind, ‘what am I thinking?’ Thought him while blushing. He's glad that no one is with him right now.

“Akihiro-san, I and I'm sure the other never thinks about you being a burden. We're family and we're supposed to help and support each other. If you have a problem you can relying on us, we'll try our best to help you” said Iori softly.

Riku smiles at his sentences and teases him a little, “ara? Where is your tsundere side Iori? I believe it was the first time you being honest with me”

“Wha-?! I'm not tsundere and what you mean by that? I always being honest with you” said Iori.

Riku laughed a little, “sure you are, honest in a mean or tsundere way” teased her again.

“Akihiro-san, I'm gonna hang up the phone” threatens Iori but it just makes Riku laugh more. Iori may be a little pissed but he can't help himself not to smile while hearing her laughs.

“Is that why you called me?” Asked Iori, who got hummed from Riku. Iori sighs, “you better throw away your thoughts about this. And I am curious, why did you call me? Maybe you can call Osaka-san or nii-san because i'm sure they'll give you more better answer than me”

Riku hummed, “you may be right. At least Sogo-san or Mitsuki won't being mean with me not like a certain people” teased Riku make Iori rolled his eyes, “but maybe it's because you're the closest member to me”

Iori blink, “you think you're the closest to me? I thought it was nii-san or Osaka-san” said him in a disbelieving tone.

“Well, you're wrong. Mitsuki and Sogo-san's presence makes me feel safe and calm, it also applies to Yamato-san. Maybe it's because they're the oldest in our group. But if you asked me who got my first trust and who made me comfortable, my answer would be you” said Riku with a sweet voice.

Iori's eyes widen and his cheeks heat up, “are you trying to flatter me, Akihiro-san? That's not gonna work” said, trying to sound plain but he can't lie to his heart that he's happy by her confession and he can't remove the smile on his face.

“Hmpf, why would I try to flatter you? Can you tell the difference between that and when I'm being honest?” She pouted.

This time, just this time Iori let himself. Riku’ eyes slightly widened and she smiled which changed to a soft laugh along with Iori.