TW: Dark side of the industry

Sunhee's point of view

My eyes glanced at the streets which were hastily passing away as the car moved ahead. I was in the backseat, whereas Heesu was sitting beside me. It was a huge surprise to me when Heesu informed me that the company provided my own car.

I mean rookie models don't get this right?

Then again, rookie models don't get jobs in JinHit, don't get a big gig so soon and rookie models don't create a huge scandal on their first day.

Anyways, as we got close to the location, my anxiety began to rise. Sure, after talking with Jin my heart and mind were at ease. He was the only reason I could clear my head and sleep well last night, if it wasn't for him I would have been looking like a zombie. But when the morning came and I realized it was actually D-Day, everything came crashing down. At this point, my hands were sweaty and my legs were shaking so badly. My mind is surrounded by awful thoughts.

What if I can't do good and make a fool out of myself? What if I can't cooperate and understand what the photographer wants from me? What if I mess up!? Make mistakes!?

It's not me, I'm not just Sam Sunhee representing here, it's Sam Sunhee, a JinHit model who is representing today. I'm not carrying my dignity on my shoulder, but the dignity of JinHit, and most importantly Jin. He has put so many expectations and trust in me, that I couldn't let him.

For him, I must do good. I must make him proud, and I shouldn't disappoint him.

I mentally shook my head, promising myself to do my best, for Jin. I will do my best and will make-

My train of thoughts halted when Heesu gently placed her hand on my shoulder. I tore away my gaze from the window after realizing the car stopped.

"We are here." She informed me. I nodded, and once again the fear and anxiety began to fill my head- not even a moment ago I was trying to motivate myself, trying to fade every ounce of insecurity and anxiety I had but now I'm even more scared than I already was.
"Hey," She called out my name. "Are you alright?" She asked, clearly concerned.

"I..." I trailed. "I'm fine." I fake a smile and lie. She wasn't too convinced by my answer, her eyes were still on my face looking for the actual answer. "Really Heesu, I'm fine." I lied once again.

"Alright, but remember Ms. Sam, I'm here for you. We might not know each other much, but I can assure you I can be there for you if you ever need to know." A small but warm smile made its place on my lips.

"I'm just a little nervous. You know-"

"It's okay Ms. Sam, it's okay to be nervous. I was too, I was so nervous on my first day and I almost passed out when the CEO called me to his cabin. I thought he was gonna fire me because he got to know I messed up the coffee machine on the first day, first hour I should say- oh my god, I'm sorry. I'm oversharing, I'm sorry I had a habit of oversharing." Her cheeks flared red in embarrassment which made me chuckle.

"It's okay, it's cute." She blushed furthermore.

"Regardless, it's okay to be nervous. Just keep that in the back of your mind. You can do it, fighting!" She raised her fist and did a small fighting action, making me laugh again and mimic her action.

"Fighting."

"Now," she unbuckled the seatbelt. "Let's get out. We need many things to do." I did the same and stepped out of the car and instantly met the scorching heat of the blazing sun.

I just wanna stay in the air conditioning car.

I looked around and saw many a couple of ladies getting out of their car, manager and assistant following them behind, holding an umbrella and their employer's belongings. I gulped, trying not to let the negative emotions take over me again.

"This way." Heesu guided me along the way, but was still walking beside me. "Here is the set." She stopped in front of a large door and looked at me- expecting me to go inside first.

I took a deep breath. You can do it Sunhee.

I pushed the door open, keeping my head high. As soon as the door opened I saw an expensive set in front me, bustling with employees, models and photographers. Multiple bright lights and fans along with some props, an ongoing photoshoot caught my attention the most. A couple of eyes set on me as they noticed me. I straighten my posture, keeping my head high. I entered the set- just to get tripped on my steps.

My eyes widened when I stumbled, going forward and hoping I didn't fall. Luckily, I composed myself before I fell on my face, broke my nose, and embarrassed myself in front of everyone. A sigh left from my lips, thank god I didn't fall on my face, that would have been a lot of mess. But soon that relief left my body when I looked up and saw everyone's eyes were on me.

Well, that was one hell of an entry.

"Hello." I awkwardly greeted and bowed, but when they didn't respond to anything and kept looking at me I scrammed away from there- hastily walking to the area which has a sign makeup room. Before I could reach the room and hide myself in that room, I felt someone grabbing my arm and dragging me in another direction. I looked to my side, it was just Heesu who was dragging me to an open corner with some chairs and vanity mirrors.

"That's our make-up room." She whispered, and left my arm. I understood immediately why our make-up room was this. There were some models already getting ready, and some just reached here.

"Alright." I nodded, figuring out what I have to do. "So-" before I could ask Heesu anything, a voice cut me.

"So many new faces we have." A gruff voice spoke. I looked in the direction to find a man, his hands were holding a professional camera so I assumed he was the photographer and from the way he was standing, eyeing each model with his downturned eyes I realized he was in charge here. His creepy eyes fell on me, and he checked me from top to bottom. And so he did this with other models.

"Why are those models still not undressed?" He yelled, and somebody hastily came with a rack of clothes. An old lady came, and other models began to undress. I expected him to go away so we could change... but he didn't. He just stood there with his hands folded. They didn't mind him like I did, they began to undress. His eyes fell on me, and his eyebrow creased. "What are you looking at? Undress." Not a very good choice of word and not professional at all.

I would have kicked his area where the sun doesn't shine and would have broken his good for nothing dick but since I'm representing JinHit and surely don't want news about a rookie model hitting the nuts of a photographer getting viral on the internet, I remained calm.

Deep breath. Think good. Deep breath.

I looked away from him, and put my purse down. Removing my crop top and my pants, I stood there with my shapewear and tube bra. It was very common for models to get ready in front of many people, and stripping off our clothes was not a bother at all. I saw the creep's eyes ranking over my body, from my back to my s-line and lowkey every model eyed me- there was a huge difference in both of them.

The lady, whom I assume was the wardrobe stylist, eyed me for a second and gave me a floral sundress from the rack and drifted her attention to another model. I wore the dress, in the presence of the photographer- I decided not to pay him any attention like the other models were doing but I couldn't help flet uncomfortable. Once I wore the dress, a couple of people came to me to check the fit. They adjust the clothes where they feel like adjustments were needed and leave when once adjustments were done.

"You're next for the makeup." Heesu whispered to me, I nodded and looked at where the shoot was happening. I never realized when that creep went away- prolly once I wore the dress and had nothing I showed. I scoffed as I watched him being absolute shit to the rookie models. "He's Steve Kang." She whispered, and my eyebrow creased in confusion.

"Wait, Steve Kang? You mean the photographer Steve Kang who went to prison for digital sex crime?" I whispered to her back and she shook her head, positively. My jaw hung in disbelief. "Steve Kang doesn't look like that-" I shook my head, he looked so different.

"Well, 10 years of sentence did fuck him up." Her eyes widened when she realized her choice of words. "I mean-"

"Good, that cunt deserved it. And even after rotting in prison he's still here, and being an absolute bitch." She nodded, and backed away when some makeup artist came and began to do their work. Within half an hour, my hair and makeup were done and I was ready for my shoot.

"Next!" I heard Steve yell, and Heesu motioned me to go. I nodded and confidently walked to the back drop, my heels making faint noise when I walked- enough for them to draw attention. I stood in the middle of the backdrop, near the chair which was the only backdrop prop.

"You ready baby girl?" Creep asked, drawing my attention. I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath clearing my mind.

"Yes." I replied, after opening my eyes. I put my one hand on my hips and another on the chair, leaning in a little so I could show my exposed shoulder.

Snap! Snap! Snap!

I heard multiple camera shutters, and the flashes nearly blind me. But I didn't let them break my character. I changed my pose, this time using my hands to shape the face. My one hand got entangled with my hair and another touched my chin.

Snap! Snap! Snap!

I changed it to a totally sideway pose, showing how the dress would look from the side.

Snap! Snap! Snap!

And for last, I turned around and stood back, looking directly into the camera while a shy coy smile played on my lips, biting my lips a little.

Snap! Snap! Snap!

"Are you sure you're a rookie?" Creeped asked as he went through the photos he just captured. I saw my photos on the PC, okay not going to lie I really look hot as fuck. No wonder he asked me if I was a rookie or not.

"Yes I'm."

"You're a good one." Didn't expect him to genuinely praise me. "All you need is a little more experience, and exposure." I will take back what I said. "What do you say baby girl, wanna come to my apartment? We can have a photoshoot to build up your portfolio, and I can recommend you to some good ass agencies." He walked closer to me, which freaked me out.

"No." I backed away before he could get any close to me. "Thank you very much, but I don't think I really deserve that right now. I'm not that good." I awkwardly laughed, hoping not to offend him too much because he's in charge here.

"Is that so?" He asked, and I nodded my head. "Get out of my sight." He yelled, which made me flinch. I mean damn, did I hurt you 3 inch dick ego that much. "Send the next model!" He yelled once again as I walked away from the backdrop. "I don't understand why the company chooses lousy models like this. They are so difficult to work with." I heard him muttering and complaining to other workers, who of course agreed with him.

After hearing his words- even though I knew he was just being a cunt because I refuse to do what he said- I felt his words had an effect on me. I looked up from my feets when I felt a hand on my shoulders, and looking up I found Heesu.

"You did a great job." Heesu smiled, making me smile too.

Damn I did, I was such a fool to let his negative words affect me. Why did I forget I was a bad bitch. I'm Sam Sunhee.

"Now get ready, you have another dress to shoot for."

The time passed by in jiff, I never realized when it was the end of the day. I did when the crew announced it was the end of the photoshoot, and told everyone we did a good job- except the creep. He was standing there with his hands folded, eyeing me. I didn't mind him, even if it was quite difficult for me after how he behaved with me throughout the day. Kept eyeing me, yelling at me for nothing, purposely telling the wardrobe stylists to give me clothes which were revealing. Nevertheless I wore those clothes and modeled them because that was my job.

"I hope everybody got their paycheck." The creep came when the models were getting dressed. His eyes fell on me, and face chrined into displeasure when he saw I was already dressed. "Expect you." He pointed at me. "Rookie models like you lack experience, so you don't get paid for the shitty job you did back there. You should be grateful I took your pictures and give you exposure and experience.

"Thank you very much for giving such a helpful and unforgettable experience. Really needed that to become the model I always aspired to become." I respectfully bowed, my words laced with sarcasm. After all that was the only thing I could do.

"No need to be thankful, it's my job to guide models like you." Yes, guide them into your bed, you shit face cunt.

How badly I wanted to say this to his face, I wanted to say so many things but I remained quiet. I couldn't forget who I was here and which agency I was representing. I looked at him, who was smirking and soon he walked away. I let out a sigh and grabbed my purse.

"You did a good job today Sunhee." Heesu, the girl is such an angel. Throughout the day she has motivated me and gave me the strength to continue further.

"Thank you Heesu." I gave her a small smile.

"I will go and get the car ready." I nodded, and watched her go away. I picked up my belongings and put them in my bag, and opened my phone to check all the updates I didn't get today.

As soon as I open it, I saw ton of messages by besties, Hayoon and other people but what caught my attention was Jin's message.

Moon:
Exit through the back
door

I will be waiting.

That message was sent two hours ago, the time our shoot was supposed to end but for some reason we ended up wrapping the shoot late.

Don't tell me-

I hastily grabbed my purse, and walked to the back door, hoping nobody would notice me. On the way I messaged Heesu that I won't be coming with her and gave her some excuse. She didn't see the message but yeah. I also wore my mask incase, I needed to be very careful.

I slowly opened the door and exited it, meeting through the fresh air. As soon as I came out, I noticed a sleek black car. So sexy, but most importantly the lean figure which was leaning on the hood of the car. I gulped harshly when my eyes trailed from his black shirt to his black pants. The new haircut did suit him but honestly he looked so hot in the long hair but again, his short hair looked sexy too, his leather shoes and the silver Rolex added more sexiness to his overall hot figure.

Wait- what? Sexy? Hot? What the fuck?

"What are you looking at? Get inside the car." Jin ordered me as soon as his eyes fell on me.

Of course, i'mma slide in.

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A/N

Not proof read because now my eyes hurt and I want sleep badly.

Was either going to write a 5k chapter or two 2.5k chapters (publish them together) but now my eyes had other plans.

Anyways, it was the harsh reality of modelling industry and the amount of research I have done for this and the amount of sad I felt for those models is immense. :'(

Anyways, the next part is going to funn.

Can't believe we almost corss 40 chapters and there is no love, no drama :') tbh I don't know what I'm gonna do. Like I do have vision of this book n goal to complete this before April but yeah, I don't know anything except this.

Anyways, hope you enjoyed! I posted after 20 days 😭😭😭 fuck me.

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