Chillin' w/ ma boy @/underscoregeoff ❤❤❤❤

I smiled and posted the picture. Geoff looked adorable in it and it shows what goes on behind closed doors. Not a whole lot apparently, just a quick workout with my fiancé.

That's normal, right?

Yeah, let's go with normal.

The bed caught my heavy body as it fell backwards. So damn tired. I didn't even know why, I just was.

Pinging from my phone interrupted my attempt to drift off. How inconsiderate.

"Ugh. I just want to sleep leave me alone!" I groaned, dragging out the vowels.

It wouldn't stop pinging. Footsteps sounded on the stairs, moving across the hallway to outside the door.

The handle turned and the door opened.

Geoff looked over to me and smiled. "Are you still tired?"

"Yes." I yawned.

"Aww my sleepy baby." Geoff cooed. I rolled my eyes and propped myself up on my elbows. With one hand I picked up my phone and with the other I covered my mouth with yet another yawn.

I decided to check my notifications while Geoff took a quick shower.

Suprisingly they were all about my most recent post.

@/imrunningoutofcreativity How fucking gay can you get?

@/ihatemylove Awsten's neck's about to blow lmao he looking like squidward.

@/whytheheckischeese Awsten's fucking strong. He's gotta carry that fat ass everywhere coz Geoff's so fucking lazy and fat!!!

@/bieber4eva Can someone tell me why these bitches all up in my face with their gay shit???

I clenched my fists and threw my phone at the wall. They can say whatever the fuck they want about me but they come at Geoff? They're gonna fucking pay.

On my way to retrieve my phone something caught my eye.

My purple hair stood out more than I realised. I walked over to the mirror and studied my reflection.

My arms were too skinny, my legs were too fat, my neck was like a giraffe's, my eyes were fucked up and my nose was too big. I did look like squidward.

I didn't look beatiful. Geoff told me I was beautiful everyday. He lied.

The bathroom door opened and Geoff entered the room in just a towel as my fist connected with the glass.

"Woah, woah Awsten calm down." His hands grabbed mine, holding them down. Geoff dragged me away from the shards and into the bathroom. He started to clean my hand and wash the blood away.

"Ok what happened?" Geoff asked. I shook my head and looked down. "Nothing. I fell."

"You fell, smashed a mirror and sliced your hand open?"

"Yes."

Geoff blew out a breath and dropped my hand. "You're lying." He said finally.

"Do I have to tell you everything? Am I not allowed secrets?"

"No, you don't have to tell me everything but we shouldn't have secrets! We shouldn't be keeping anything from each other I mean we're getting married in two months for fucks sake! How is this gonna work if you can't trust me?"

"I do trust you!" I protested. "I do trust you but there's some things you don't need to know."

"Obviously I need to know what's going on when you're fucking smashing mirrors and bleeding all over the place." He stormed out the bathroom and into our room where he carefully started to pick up the pieces.

"Is the anything I can do?" I asked timidly.

"No, just stand back. I don't need you to be hurt anymore. You've done enough."

I knew it. I fucked up and he hates me. Tears streamed down my face as I ran out the room. I mess everything up. I can never do anything right.

I curled up on the floor next to the tub and cry empty tear, letting every pent up emotion out.

"Awsie?" I looked up to see a brown head pop round the door. "Baby what's wrong?"

I looked away. He sighed and knelt down next to me, enfolding me in his arms.

"Awsten sweetheart I'm so sorry I got angry. You know I'm just worried about you. I just...I just wish I knew what was going on in that pretty little head."

"I'm not pretty." I mumbled.

"Hmm?"

"I said I'm not pretty."

Geoff took my hands and pulled me into a standing position. Twirling us both round he walked us over to the round mirror.

"Look in there and tell me what you see."

"I...I see two people. I see a perfect man and I see squidward."

"Geez thanks. Didn't realise I look like squidward." Geoff scoffed.

I rolled my eyes and hit his chest. "No I'm squidward you idiot. You're so perfect and beautiful and I'm just plain old me. My nose is too big and I look like a turnip."

"Who ever is telling you this shit is wrong. Do you want me to tell you what I see?" I nodded. "If you want."

"I see us. I see me and you. I see what my idea of perfect is. Everyone has their ideas. They think they have to be skinny and pretty and blonde and fake and tanned and smiley but they don't. They only have to be themselves. To me, you're my idea of perfect."

Slowly I looked up at him. "What?"

Geoff took my face in his hands and kissed me softly. "You're my idea of perfect. You're beautiful to me." He responded.

"You're all I've ever needed. I am beautiful with you. You make me feel the way I'm supposed to be. You're here with me, you show me this and I believe. You love me for myself, you look at me like no one else. I love you Geoff and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you."

The purple's fading. It needs re-dying. Sighing I drop my hands, the soft plum lock floping against my face. I need to cut it too.

Next to the mirror I spot the three framed pictures hanging up beside it.

The same ones from our prom night. I kept telling Geoff how much I wanted to spend the rest of our time together and I never realised how short that would be.

A knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts and forced me to focus. I walk over to it and open it.

"Delivery for Mr Wigington?"

"Uh I haven't ordered anything..."

"Whatever. I really don't care. Just sign here please." I take the box and sign the paper. Across the street I see my neighbour with his boyfriend.

Their dog ran in front of them while they walked hand in hand behind.

Liam and Ruby went inside but Niall stopped and waved at me. "Hey Awsten!"

I waved back and smiled briefly before going inside and dropping the box to the floor. Breathing heavily I clamp a hand over my mouth and attempt to push back the tears.

I want that. I miss that.

"I love you Geoff and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you."

"You're my idea of perfect."

I have loads of exams and studying to do and I wanna sleep but I can't 'cause I'm stressed.

How's your day been??

Two chapters left!! Xox