You say it's my home
Home...

So I need to do
all these things

All this stuff I'm responsible for
Stuff that you say is important

But it's not important to me
Not the way I'm forced into it

I'm tired of it having to be your way

If it were a home
really a home
you and I might even
know each other

But you really don't know me
or what I'm going through
right now

I thought I cared
to express how I felt once

I don't even really care
to try

Because you don't
want to hear about it

All you want to do
is push ahead
Push forward

and what you are doing
is pushing me farther away

So fine
I will do these
important things

and then when
those things are done
and this is all situated

it will be your home

but I don't believe
it was ever truly
mine

(November 9th, 2017)