4 YEARS AGO

"I'm sleepy.." I mumble while yawning.

"Jeez, SJ! Listen to our teacher or he'll drop you!" Gio

"Don't be exaggirated. He won't caught me if you'll shut your pretty mouth :)" I said while looking outside the window. It's raining huh?

"Psh. Bahala ka nga dyan! Basta pag nahuli ka, don't call my name."

"Fine."

After class, we head to our favorite spot. At the abandoned building in our academy. They said it's haunted but Gio and I didn't find it like that. It's actually amusing! Seeing abandoned place that even a hobbo outside would love to live here. I wonder why they have to vacant this.

I look at my back to see who's looking at me.

I smile at Mico who's taking my pictures. He has the talent to become a professional photographer but he doesn't seen interested.

"What? Do whatever you want and let me do my thing!" Mico

"You sound like a pervert, man." Gio

"I may be sound like a pervert, but your actually the one who's pervert." Mico

"Enough of it. Mamaya kung saan pa mapunta ya'ng asaran nyo."

Umiling ako dahil nag titigan sila. I don't know but ever since may nangyari ata ay hindi na naging mag kasundo ang dalawa'ng yan to think that they're cousins. Tsk, magkaka bati din naman sila.

"Anyway, what are you doing here?" I ask Mico.

"Ah. Nothing?" Mico

"Psh. Don't lay your dirty hand to my best friend Mico."

"What are you saying, dude?" Mico

Tinitigan sya ni Gio saka hinatak ako palayo. Maybe it's just a split of thought but did I really saw Mico holding a,

protection?

Maybe it's natural for him since 3rd year college na sya. To think that Gio and I are just 4th year students, baka hindi pa kami talaga humahawak nyan. Nag site seeing lang kami sa loob ng abandoned building. Kahit paulit-ulit kami dito ay hindi pa rin kami mag sawa-sawa!

Mga alas syete na ng maka uwi kami. Hinatid pa muna nila ako sa bahay. Hindi ko na nga sila agad pinauwi. Wala naman ako'ng kasama sa bahay. Nakaka sawa nang puro yaya ang nakikita ko. We ate dinner together. Kahit na nag aaway yung dalawa sa harap ng pagkain ay hindi ko magawang magalit.

Sabay na din silang umalis pag katapos. Hindi muna ako pumasok sa loob ng bahay at dumeretso sa garden. No doubt, our house is really big. But very gloomy and sad. Not like Gio's house, you'll always hear people's laughs.

My place... You can call it house.. But you'll never think of it as 'home'. That word is only the place where 'love' came not to our house who only had expensive figurines and interiors.. Only that..

I narrowed my forehead when the doorbell rings. I saw Mico standing there. I opened it and look at him with confused but he just smiled at me.. A very sweet yet a.. little dagerous smile?

I smack my head inside. How could I think that he's dangerous!? He's my best friend for almost half of my life!

"Hey!" Mico

"E-Err. Hey, why're you still here? Where's Gio?" mag-isa lang sya eh.

"Uhm. He goes somewhere. Anyway.. Can I come in? I think I left my phone at your room while we're playing xbox."

"Sure."

Hinayaan ko na sya'ng isarado yung gate saka ako umakyat sa second floor. Hinahanap ko yung phone in possible places na pwede nya'ng mapag iwan pero hindi ko makita. Napa tingin ako ng may pumasok sa room ko.

"Mic, Are you sure you left it somewhere here?"

"Yeah. I'm really sure of it.. Ah, SJ, can I borrow your comfort room? I need to pee."

"Yeah sure. Go ahead."

Pumasok na sya sa banyo ko. I started to look for his phone again. Seriously, I almost take all my thing upside, down but I really can't find it. I heard my door opened and closed but I didn't not look at it. It's just Mico.

I get stunned when I felt s-something h-hard poking m-my back.

"M-Mico. W-What are you d-doing..?"

"*sniff.. Ah.. I really love your scent SJ.."

"M-Mico..-"

I put my hand on my lips to surpass my gasp when I saw h-how big the bulge o-on his pants. I look at him with scared face but get tremble when I saw how his eyes burn..

In lust..

I'm about to run when he grab my arm and push me to the edge of my bed and fell. I tried to push him but all his weight are on me. I scratched his neck then saw how furious his face is. He held both of my hands and pin it on top of my head.

"M-Mico.. P-Please let go! T-This is not right!" I shouted with my cracking voice.

"I.. I won't... I've been waiting for this... I've been waiting for this moment to have you mine, baby.."

"Mico ano ba!? I said let go!"

Damnit, they won't hear us even if I shout. My room is soundproof! I closed my eyes while tears are starting to escape from it. I felt a warm,soft and wet thing on my lips..

M-My first Kiss!!

I tried to pull out but he held my face! Damn he's strong!

He started roaming his hands to my legs.. He gently caress it while rubbing his body on top of me. I felt the sudden chill when he touch me 'there'. I can't do a thing.. Damn it!

'Gio help!'

He stopped kissing my lips then down to my jaw-line to my neck then down to my chest. I tried to knee him when he put some weight on my legs. He's eyes are closed while passionately kissing each part of my body. I cried as much as I can when his mouth is now in one of my nipple and gently nibble it!

"S-Stop it M-Mico!"

"I-I can't... And I won't baby.. You're mine... and you'll be mine all in all if I got you.." then he pull out h-his.. shaft? A-And saw h-how big that is.. H-How did he manage to w- Don't tell me he wear that protection w-while he's inside my c.r?

"N-No! G-GIO!!"

*BLAGH!!

"MICO!!" G-Gio!?

"Tsk! What are you doing here?" Mico

I took my blanket and wrapped it on my body and run at Gio. I felt him hugging me so did I. Mico stand up and came for me but I shout! He almost rape me!

I hate him! I despise Mico Alcantara for doing such things to me!

*BLAGH!

"YOU BASTARD! SABI KO NA NGA BA MAY GAGAWIN KA! MABUTI'T HINDI AGAD AKO UMALIS AT PINAG MASDAN KA!" Gio.

"WAG KA MANGIELAM DITO GIO!"

"GAGU KA PALA EH! BEST FRIEND KO NA YAN!"

"U-UMALIS KA NA MICO! I-I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!! EVER AGAIN!!" I shouted with my crying voice. I saw how he get hurt base on his reaction.

"B-Baby please.. I-I just love you that's why I did this! P-Please let's continue w-what w-"

"Gago ka Mico! Umalis ka na nga bago pa kita mapatay!" Gio

"U-Umalis ka na!" sigaw ko.

Hindi sya tinignan ng naka yuko'ng umalis sya.. Nasaktan ako, oo. Kaibigan ko sya at hindi ko kaya'ng makita na gano'n ang ekspresyon nya. Pero ang ginawa nya sakin ay galit na lang ang meron ako para sa kanya. Napa upo ako sa sahig habang nanginginig. Naramdaman ko ang pag yakap sakin ni Gio.

"I'm sorry SJ.. May ginawa pa ba sayo yu'ng gago'ng yun? Tatawag ako ng puli-"

"W-Wag na.. Wala naman nangyar-ri.. S-Salamat talaga at dumating ka.."

"Wala yun... Sorry talaga... I know that Mico has mental disorder and I thought he can control it.. I'm so sorry on behalf of my cousin." Napa maang ako sa sinabi nya. Mental disorder?

"W-What?"

"He's sick.. It's kind of sick where he can't control his emotions. We thought that he's already fine by taking medicine. But one time I heard him talking to himself, as if.. He's talking to you.. Then I just found out the he's in love with you for about.. 3 years? P-Psychopath. That's him."

"I-I understand.. B-But I guess.. W-We can't be like what we used before.. I hope you'll understand.."

"Of course I do. I'm sorry again SJ."

Ever since that incident, he's always coming to my house to say sorry and to continue what we 'almost' did that time. I'm very scared na kahit gabi ay nasa labas sya ng bahay namin that's why I decided to move out ng hindi nya alam. I tried my best na si Gio lang ang nakaka alam kung saan ako naka tira..

And then one day I've heard from Gio that Mico was forced to go back in US where he was born and raised. They said they'll confine him there so then he'll get better and control himself.

And that's a relief for me.