(I hope you enjoy this story 😄 btw trigger warning: cutting and swearing)

Help me polarise,help me polarise,
help me down
Those stairs is where I'll be hiding all my problems,
Help me polarise, help me polarise,help me out
My friends and I, we've got a lot of problems.
As you already know I'm Karamatsu Matsuno, always being around my karamatsu girls......okay that's a lie, lately I have not been feeling myself. lately I've just been moping around like my younger brother . Maybe it's cause everybody chooses to ignore me, and to be honest I give up trying.
You know where I'm coming,
From though I am running,
To you, all I feel is deny, deny, denial.
I feel like I'm running from the truth. Osomatsu tells me I am painful, I really still don't understand, I mean I love everyone why would I hurt anybody. I haven't punched or kicked anybody but everyone still thinks I'm painful. I deny all of this is true and that people maybe are just uncertain of me.
I wanted to be a better brother, better son,
Wanted to be a better adversary to the evil
I have done
I have none to show to the one I love,
But deny, deny, denial.
Maybe I could change to be a better brother and a better son then maybe everyone will stop ignoring me. First though I have to figure what's wrong with me I mean I think nothing is wrong but other people say there is. Though there is something I would never change. The fact that I love anyone no matter who  they are. Actually maybe I should start by fixing my mistakes.
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me down,
Those stairs is where I'll be hiding all my problems,
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I, we've got a lot of problems.
Well so far my plan is kinda working and I'm starting to feel more like myself but I can't help that every time I accomplish something, there is always something missing. I decided to drop the leather jacket and sparking pants which is sad sorry karamatsu girls but it had to be done. Also my contact lenses.
Polarise is taking your disguises,
Separating them, splitting them up from
Wrong and right,
Its deciding where to die and deciding
Where to fight,
Deny, deny, denial.
You know the saying old habitats die hard, well it's true I've been trying to look like a normal man in front of the ladies but they still think I'm a creep. Maybe they know that this new me is a disguise. Though I started to sort myself from the things I do that are wrong and right. And also instead of being I coward I will learn to fight so I can protect those I love.
I wanted to be a better brother, better son,
Wanted to be a better adversary to the evil
I have done,
I have none to show to the one I love,
But deny, deny, denial.
Wow things are actually kinda getting better well my brothers still treat me the same, but to be honest I don't know if I really do want to change that. But I do want to how my father treats me, I want him to be proud of his son. Also I realised something you know how I was going to fix my poor mistakes, well I just learned some mistakes cannot be changed. Though mother said I can learn from mistakes, maybe she is right.
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me down,
Those stairs is where I'll be hiding all my problems,
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I, we've got  a lot of problems.
I went to go to chibita to see if he had tips for me but he didn't. He said there is no point helping me cause I will just end up failing like the rest of my brothers. But I of course deny that and decided that maybe he has got his own to deal with.
We have problems
We have problems
I've been thinking of telling my brothers about my problems but I decide to hide them and some of my emotions. They, like chibita probably have problems of their own as well. Is there anyone I can talk to without burdening them?
[2x]
Domingo en fuego, I think I lost my halo,
I don't know where you are,
You'll have to come and find me, find me.
Great! I am loosing my light, my confidence, I don't have people to talk to about my problems. I'm lost and scared and I can't really fucking take it anymore! I always look to my brothers and think why, why can't I be like them. I sometimes wish I could run away and no one would find me, I mean that sound like the best idea. But I love my brothers too much to leave them.
We have problems
We have problems
I mean would they care, would they notice I'm gone probably not. By the way I found out that itchimastu has been fucking cutting himself. It took all of us to stop him. He ignored me though. Then it was my job to throw the blades away but I couldn't for I might need them.
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I have problems.
That's it I promise I wouldn't use these fucking blades but I had no choice because no one will help me! Last night I screamed out in the open air did anyone here me? no! Cause I'm a piece of shit!
Help me polarise,help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I have problems.
I have to stop this shit! I can't keep on cutting, even if the blade is my only friend I can't stand it. I don't want this, I want the perfect life. I want to be happy and to be loved. Why can't I have that?
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I have problems.
Was it something I've done? Am I not perfect for this world? Maybe that's what's wrong maybe I just need to wait and be paitent. Scars are building up on my arms as I start wearing long sleeves. Actually ichimatsu was looking at me weirdly today I wonder if he knows or cares? Probably not.
Help me polarise, help me polarise,
Help me out,
My friends and I have problems.
I think this could be a dream no a nightmare. Hopefully I will wake up soon and see my brothers. Maybe I could just forget about all this.
We have problems
We have problems
The scars are to many. I'm now gone not lost. I'm scared shitless of I've become. I know I have not only failed myself but I've failed my brothers and parents. I don't want to stop now I'm in to deep. All I wanted was to be loved. But most importantly, all I wanted was to be a better brother and a better son.
I wanted to be a better brother, better son
I wanted to be a better brother, better son
I wanted to be a better brother, better son