Chapter 66: Shattered
Jungkook was brushing his teeth in the bathroom as Jimin was in the living room, adjusting his suit for work. The man was silent about Jungkook's whole plan in finding out who killed who. It was starting to make Jimin go insane. Jimin just couldn't take in another type of discussion on Jungkook's father's death. Especially when Jimin wouldn't have a good reaction on the matter.
Jungkook rinsed his mouth as he looked up at the mirror, he can see Jimin in the living toom through the reflection. Jimin was just sitting there... Thinking to himself the whole time. Jungkook smiled and then, walked out of the bathroom to look at Jimin just sitting there. "So silent today..." Jungkook called out making Jimin flinch and turn around to see the younger standing right by his side.
"I've just been doing a lot of thinking... I'm sorry if it may seem as if I'm ignoring you, Baby Boy..." Jimin added as Jungkook chuckled and sat next to his lover, putting his arm around the boy and making a smile.
"That's fine... Have you eaten? You need to eat something on your way to work, understand?" Jungkook advised as Jimin nodded, folding his hands together when suddenly, Jungkook placed his hand in between the man's hand and kept them locked and intertwined.
"You're talking to me like I don't know when to eat. Cut it out." Jimin laughed as Jungkook still kept his hand locked with the older. Gently laying his head on Jimin's shoulder to close his eyes. "Hey, don't start sleeping now... I have to go off to work soon." Jimin said with a smile, poking the younger's soft face.
"I know~" Jungkook claimed as he opened his eyes to lock eye contact with his boyfriend. "Jimin... You were drunk yesterday... Right? Why did you drink?"
"I guess... I was feeling guilty..." Jimin added, still holding Jungkook's hand.
"Was it for leaving me..?"
".... Not quite..." Jimin mentioned. "I've messed up so much in life.... I grow guilty on my old decisions, creeping up on me again and again." Jimin sighed after as Jungkook smiled at Jimin and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"Well... You can tell me. People feel better when it comes to letting out their deepest feelings..." Jungkook said as Jimin shook his head almost instantly.
"W-What I've done... No one will forgive me... And telling you is like giving you the issue to live with. My husband-to-be doesn't deserve to know such scary things about me... Just my disorder, gambling and playing Poker is just not all that's rotten about me." Jimin confessed as Jungkook sighed and loosened his hand on Jimin's grasp, standing up afterwards to walk forward and gaze back at Jimin.
"The more you say it like that... It makes me realize that this could all be linked to-"
Jimin then suddenly stood up. "Don't you dare say it...." Jimin warned as Jungkook stopped and tilted his head.
"What? About my... Father's death...?" Jungkook asked raising a brow, making Jimin turn around and cover his face from Jungkook. Trying to calm down before he actually goes off like a bomb. "What's wrong about my Father.... Jimin? You're acting weird..." Jungkook mentioned, looking at Jimin stay completely silent, only then... Jimin's shoulders started to jump slightly as Jungkook started to hear sobs coming from Jimin.
"Why can't you listen to your Mother and understand this is something you need to drop..?" Jimin asked as he let out a sigh through his tears.
"T-This is something I don't understand at all.... You tell me to drop it... But it's not easy! I have the right to grieve over my Father whichever way I please and finding out what happened to him is what I need to be able to accept it! I just... I just can't help but to wonder if he really is out there..." Jungkook claimed, already feeling like Jimin had enough. He was angry yet set back by the thoughts in his little head. This made Jungkook walk up and hug the older, hugging him from the back as Jimin gazed up and suddenly began to sob loudly. "W-Why are you crying...?" Jungkook asked in a worried voice as Jimin closed his eyes shut. Not being able to bear holding it in any further.
"Stop... Jungkook let go..." Jimin sobbed, feeling Jungkook's head shake quickly. "Stop it already!"
"Jimin.... I know you miss him too... He was such a great Father figure to you... I understand the guilt of you wishing you were there that day and the amount of regret you get when you see me and wish the time can reverse and you can just see him one last time... I feel the same way! Please don't push me away when I wasnt to love you... When I want to help you. I'm all you have..." Jungkook continued as Jimin felt like he was going to throw up from all the stress and yesterday's alcohol he took. But of course, in order for the torture to go away, he had to come clean.
"J-Jungkook...I..... I killed him..." Jimin confessed as Jungkook's eyes widened and slowly loosened his grip on Jimin. Taken back by the whole comment Jimin confessed. "Jungkook...?" Jimin sobbed silently, turning his head to the side to see Jungkook already backing away in fear. Feeling as if his heart was breaking into many pieces now while Jimin kept staring into his eyes. "I-"
"You're lying.... Liar! I don't believe you..." Jungkook whispered as he was far enough to stop and look at Jimin in tears. "No matter how much you tell me... I'll deny it!" Jungkook cried as Jimin turned his head away, not looking into Jungkook's direction as he began to hug himself in tears now. "I know you'll never hurt me, Love..."
"I-I'm not lying... I-It was my fault... ALL MY FAULT!" Jimin sobbed quickly raising his hands up to his hair and gripping onto it as he started to break down. "I DID IT!! I DESERVE DEATH LIKE WHAT YOU SAID!!" Jimin shouted while Jungkook's hands balled up into fists. He didn't know what to do now.
"Jimin...H-How could you...? Why?!" Jungkook shouted as Jimin continued to sob in fustration.
"I-It wasn't my idea... It wasn't! I was forced to do it! I had to go with it... Because of this, my disorder got worst, my drinking.... My regret and guilt! J-Jungkook you don't understand how much I wanted to kill myself... I-I wanted to die... As soon as I did it, I held the gun up to my head and longed to die... But... B-But they told me not to! They said if I did... The rest of the Jeons would die too! I-I had to live with it.."
"WHO ARE 'THEY'?!" Jungkook cried as Jimin started to shake his head and cover his ears from the loud yells his lover gave him.
"I-I can't! They told me not to say... Besides, it's all my fault so if you are going to blame anyone, BLAME ME!" Jimin sobbed and as soon as everything got quiet, he heard a necklace chain snap. Jimin's eyes then widened as he looked back to see Jungkook holding it in his hands while the boy gave Jimin a tearful stare. "Jungkook! N-No!"
"You took my Father away... The last piece of my life so I'm taking away the last piece of your life... Taking away the last thing of your own Mother..." Jungkook said as Jimin's eyes widened and suddenly, Jungkook dropped it onto the cold and hard marbled floor and stepped on it with force, shattering the fragile saphire into many big chunks of pieces while Jungkook kept stomping on it. Breaking it even more as Jimin started to shout and cry loudly.
"NO STOP IT!" Jimin shouted, running up to Jungkook and quickly pushing him off as he got on his knees and looked at the shattered saphire on the ground. Quickly picking up the sharp pieces and letting out a soft cry as Jungkook looked down at Jimin. Trying to pick up the pieces of the gem. "M-Mother...." Jimin whispered in tears, he couldn't see anymore with so much tears filling his eyes now and dripping onto the shattered Gem. "I-I.... Deserved that..." Jimin weeped. "Not something Mother gave me!" Jimin cried looking down at the pieces helplessly as Jungkook backed up and ran off to the random empty room Jimin was wanting to give Jungkook at first.
The boy ran into the abandoned room, quickly shutting it and locking it as he began to tear up and slide his body down against the door and cry to himself. Not knowing what to do now as nothing but his sobs echoed in the empty room. Hearing Jimin's silent sobs beyond the door aswell.
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