The first time I saw you, the first time I interacted with you, this definitely would not have been one of the possibilities that I thought would have waited for us.  Among the many twists of fate, in the future that I saw, there was never this option but still I cannot say that I regret it.  I remember every moment we were together, I also remember how we got to know each other three years ago...

For the way you've changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction.

At that time our meeting was not special, not in the way that our relationship became.  You were just one more trainer than I saw every day, you were another person who locked friends in those prisons called pokeball.  That was the first thing I thought of hearing you argue with Cheren about what Team Plasma had said.  I never intended to actually speak to you, not even to prove my point;  I was not that type of person at the time I met you, my goal was not to fight either.  I preferred to keep quiet and not try to fight every little battle I could to win a war, my idea was a bigger one but, I couldn't ignore the words of your pokemon at that moment ... Gigi, the little Tepig that accompanied you wanted to be at  your side.  As an ally, as a friend... as a family.  I couldn't understand it, I couldn't understand it and that's why I made the decision to approach you...

At that moment I remember trying to tell you what your pokemon was saying but I was interrupted by Cheren, he really is a good friend of yours, until now I realize what he did at that moment was try to protect you.  I couldn't help wondering why and I ended up challenging you to a pokemon battle as soon as I knew your name.  I wanted to see it with my own eyes, the reason why that pokemon loved you so much.

I didn't even know when that little Tepig could beat all my pokemon by herself, I didn't understand how she got her strength if all you did was give meaningless orders while I could see fear in your eyes.  So even after having lost I kept asking myself why, why were you afraid?  Why did that pokemon love you?  Why was she trying so hard to protect you?

I didn't know then when I became more and more interested in you.  I wanted to know more, see more, feel more everything your pokemon said.  I wanted to find a method to free my friends without damaging them, so I went to the Museum in Nacrene City and there I found it in an exhibition.  I was very upset at that moment, those people did not even know what that stone was and they exposed it as a kind of trophy between those four walls.  But still... When I tried to talk to him, to convince him to join my cause, to show him how the very humans he had saved hundreds of years ago were now hurting him ...

Zekrom refused to listen to me.

He said he was waiting, he said he didn't blame the humans.  He told me about an ideal world, a world that someone would want with him, he told me that someone special would rescue him from that place and fill his heart, he also told me that I was not that person.  He told me that the hero he hoped would light the darkness in his heart and show the world the correct way to do things, he also told me that my ideal world was perfect so much that it was something unreal, he also told me that he did not expect me to understand  since there was only someone who was really made to understand him, then you appeared.

I could feel how Zekrom was drawn to something outside, something that called him, then he stopped talking to me.  When I left that place you were the first thing I saw so for a moment I tried to check my point of view with you, I was upset because Zekrom had rejected me.  I wanted someone to understand my motives so I told you.

“I… I want to witness something that no one has ever seen.  The truth revealed about the Pokémon locked in Poké Balls.  The ideals about those who call themselves Trainers.  And a future where Pokémon can live peacefully.  You sure share my vision... "

I tried to make you see the world as I saw it for the first time, in that place.  But even though you understood my point of view and agreed, you kept fighting.  And I had no choice but to take your actions as mine, if the words still did not work despite having an understanding, the true answer would come from your actions.

For the way you took the idea that I had
of everything I wanted to have.
Made me see there was something missing.

For the second time I lost in that moment but still the fear was still in your eyes.  A strange fear that could not explain, a fear tied to something that I could not see.  The next time I saw you was in Nimbasa City after I told you in Nacrene my intentions to resurrect Reshiram and change the world, you seemed to have fun.  Your eyes at that moment when you entered the amusement park were ones that I had never seen before, they were full of fury and again I felt that curiosity for you and I took the opportunity I had to satisfy that curiosity.

I remember inviting you to search for Team Plasma together, I remember that while we were doing it, I don't know why I ended up enjoying the amusement park with you.  I had never done it, I was only going to see the Ferris wheel downtown, but that day I remember buying cotton candy and crepes just because I saw how hungry you were.  I knew at the time that I didn't understand it and that it was just an impulse but I remember even encouraging you to seek out my own team members to beat them up.  It was not something I could allow, but I did not want to see that face with which you entered the place, I wanted to see you smile for some reason...

Then I realized that I really wanted your friendship, so I decided to tell you everything in a private place, in a place where there is no possibility of fighting either, just you and me.  There I invited you to the Ferris wheel and I told you the whole truth.  If something was going to be born at that time, I ended up destroying it ... or so I thought.

For the ending of my first beginning
And for the rare and unexpected friend.

"First of all, you should know that I am the king of Team Plasma."

As soon as I said those words the smile that was on your face disappeared, at that moment I felt as if something inside me was twisting even though I did not show anything on my face.  Yours however, was full of what I could describe as betrayal, hatred and a deep sadness for which I did not know why. Could it be that you were interested in someone like me in some way?  No, it couldn't be that, and it wouldn't have been something that I could have accepted.  At that moment something like a friendship between us was impossible, but still...

The moment you suddenly got up inside that cabin, both Servine and I were surprised, he seemed not to like you very much from the beginning or maybe because he was defeated by the little Tepig who was next to you.  For the second time I saw that look on your face and for a second I seemed to melt into the place, I did not know what that feeling was, but your eyes seemed to burn with fury and pain as you took me by the collar of my shirt and led me to your height.

"I hate you"

Those words were what I heard from your lips before Servine pushed you back and you fell to the floor of the little metal cubicle we were in.  I thought you would get mad, I thought you would order Tepig to attack since Servine had done it, he had attacked you with his vines he had even hurt you on the cheek as I could see.  I couldn't get mad at him and I didn't say anything but still my hand tried to get closer to you on his own.  You hit it and rejected by standing up.

"Do not touch me!"

Those words stopped me completely and before I could react you had opened the cabin door and the wind due to the height had enveloped us.  I couldn't see your intentions immediately but your words confirmed it to me, you didn't want to be in the same place as me, you didn't want to continue sharing space with me.  When I discovered that I couldn't help feeling that strange way, but by the time I could react you were trying to convince Gigi to accompany you but she never moved from the place so I realized it.  You had called Gigi by another name, you even realized yourself after saying that you wanted to protect her this time.  Suddenly you started to apologize for something and when you backed up you slipped.  At that moment I don't know what happened, I only know that my body reacted on its own in an impulse and I jumped from my seat to the edge of the cabin to save you, when I reacted completely I discovered that I had screamed in a desperate way and had  ordered Servine to use a vine whip to hold your body and hold your hand.  Then I understood that fear that I had seen in your eyes before... the fear of losing something.

For the way you've something that I never choose.
But at the same time, something I don't want to lose
And that I don't wanna be without ever again.

In that instant your eyes met mine and the next thing I knew, we had lifted you up and your body was on top of mine while I was sitting on the metal floor and the door had closed.  When I tried to check on you, you had passed out so I decided to take you to a pokemon center.

After that accident Gigi asked me to stay by my side, she even asked me to take her pokeball from your bag.  Of course I didn't, but her on her own account.  I didn't know the reason, but it wasn't that she wanted to leave you, there was an ulterior motive that I could not see, but I accepted.  In exchange, I left in her place the pokeball of one of my friends that you already knew and him by your side, although he was not happy about it, he ended up accepting because it was my request.  I wanted to know more about you, I also wanted to see what Team Plasma was like from your point of view, I wanted to see how you treated pokemon when no one was watching.  I wanted to know more, I wanted to know who you really were.

I thought we would never meet again after that but the next day we met again at the amusement park in front of the Ferris wheel.  I thought you would come to demand that I give you back Tepig, I thought you would come to challenge me to a pokemon battle, but you never did any of that.  Instead you thanked me and looked at Tepig for a second and then bowed your head and apologized and when you were going to leave two of the Team Plasma members arrived and we had no choice but to fight.  After that I left the place, I didn't want to see that look of contempt on your face, I didn't want to hear your rude words again.  For some reason I didn't want to acknowledge that side of you that seemed to hate me.  It was fine with the Touko who ate cotton candy and laughed along with her pokemon.

You're the best thing I never knew I needed

When I saw you again, it was in Chargestone Cave.  I knew that I had no right to speak to you, that there would be no way you would want to see me so I asked the Shadow Triad to bring you to me, then I could see that that had also been a mistake...

You said that it was disgusting, that you hated the people following you and when I told you what I talked about with my father about you, I could feel a flame ignite inside you.  I didn't know why I could see certain...happiness?  in your look but at the same time there was a deep hatred.  A hatred that I was not able to eliminate no matter how much I did or said ... So I preferred to talk about your friends and their ideals, that was also a bad decision...

"A world with a variety of points of view is doomed to fail.  And that is something that I do not intend to allow.  Humans and Pokémon are different beings, like night and day!  Only by being separated can the Pokémon enjoy a full life.  Yes!  That is my big dream!  The one I must make come true!  Touko!  You have dreams too, right?"

And when I asked you about your dreams and aspirations for a second I saw your smile when you looked at me, I wish I knew the dream of that moment, I wish I could understand you as well as the pokemon ... my way of thinking was strange at that time.  But your answer was enough for me.

"Yes, there is a dream that I want to fulfill.  A very different dream from yours, one even more naive"

So I accepted it to the bottom of my heart, whatever dream you had, from the bottom of my heart I thought that it couldn't be wrong, that it could come true too.

"You also have dreams… that's wonderful.  Let me check what kind of dreams you have challenging you to a fight!"

From that moment many things happened, you defeated me as usual.  I met the person who had turned you into a trainer and tried to impose my truth on the world again, only to get that disapproving look of yours while you stood by my side.  I even let you face a large number of Team Plasma members to satisfy my father's curiosity and I could not help but feel guilty but as if you were the owner of the electricity of the place, just with a small pokemon that you had captured you defeated them all... And when I found you in Mistralton City, that Servine that I had left by your side was gone.  Instead there was a proud Serperior standing next to you, without a scratch, coming out of the gym from the woman wearing flying type.  Being at the greatest disadvantage you had won, the pokemon who did not like you, had ended up fighting for you.  I couldn't help but get closer once more.

I saw how you looked at me so I couldn't speak to you, I preferred to speak to Serperior instead, but what he told me surprised me even more.  He told me things about you that I never expected to have known, things that were too sad... and without realizing it I ended up omitting information about what he said when I spoke to you.  I couldn't put into words the fact that you knew my own pain, no, you knew a pain that I had not experienced on my own.  Your first pokemon, your first partner, the one with whom you had surely lived a long time and made promises... he was dead.

When I found out about that I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to tell you so I could only watch, and for a moment your expression seemed to calm down as you playfully scold Serperior.  Weren't you able to get mad at a pokemon?  Was it just because I was there?  The questions that I thought I had answered seconds ago had become questionable again and every second I looked at you I knew an unknown part of you.  I wanted to see more, I didn't have time for that, you were the enemy ... but still.  I wanted to see more every facet of you that I did not know.

The Touko who laughed in the amusement park eating cotton candy, the annoyed Touko inside the Ferris wheel cabin, the Touko who hugged a pokemon giving all her love, the Touko who thought that humans and pokemon were family, the Touko who I could never see but who suffered the death of a partner, every sad or happy moment I wanted to see.  I wanted to see the world that your eyes saw.  Touko's world.  That Touko's world couldn't be wrong right?

So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed.

"What do you think, Touko?  You have before you the hero who is to guide the world.  And, fighting alongside him, the mighty silhouette of a Pokémon! "

Those were my first words when we met in Dragonspiral, I could see your expression of astonishment up close and for some reason I couldn't help but feel proud of my achievement.  But at the same time why was I sad?  Was it because it would all end soon?  Could I not again hear your jokes of calling me 'my lord' or 'my king' while defeating all the members of my team?  Was the end really that close?  But, what I couldn't bear the most was how the expression on your face seemed more than astonishment that of a broken heart...

Did you also hope it didn't go that far?  Did you also hope to continue as before forever?  Me too... but I couldn't stop talking.  I wasn't supposed to be a friend of my enemy and of someone who went against all my principles ...

“Now, Reshiram and I will head to the Pokémon League and defeat the Champion!  And with that we will put an end to the fighting, which causes so much damage to the Pokémon.  A world only for them... will finally be a reality. "

I couldn't betray everyone because of my selfish desires to be with you, as a friend, as someone by your side.  Then I realized that, maybe that was the reason for your look.  Like the day and the night, like the sun and the moon, like the light and the dark... As ideals and truth we were side by side wanting an understanding but not being able to achieve it.  Two opposing halves that should never come together... Like pokemon and humans ...

But still...

And now it's so clear, I need you here always...

"In order to stop us, you too must demonstrate heroic qualities!  Yes!  Earn the respect of Zekrom, Reshiram's antagonist, and take on us!  You try to stop us! Well, What are you thinking to do?  According to my calculations… According to the future I foresee, your destiny is to find Zekrom.  Your Pokémon team believes in you!  The formula to change the world ... Will you be his unsolved unknown?  If you want to protect the bonds between humans and Pokémon, look for Zekrom!  I am sure it is waiting for you in a dormant state in the Dark Stone."

I wanted you to stop me.

If anyone could do it, it was you, Zekrom was waiting for you.  I knew it, but I also knew that we could not escape from this fate.  So the next time we met, it was the last.  The battle we should have for the world.  What would be stronger your ideals or the truth that I wanted to show everyone?

But when you arrived, Zekrom was not by your side ... Was it my fault?  You were the heroine of ideals, I had trusted that deeply, I had trusted you from the first moment I saw you, from the very beginning, I had liked you from that moment, but could it be that I expected too much?  Could I have the wrong person in that museum?  But even so if I had disappointment in my tone of voice, even if you didn't have Zekrom, for some reason I was hopeful... and as always my mistake in choosing the words was the trigger.

"I've been fooling myself all this time!"

Yes, that was true, but not from what I thought.  I was fooling myself when I thought I knew you, when I thought had seen everything and understood you.  I was fooling myself when I thought I could defeat you.

"It is evident that we would never understand each other no matter how much we fought!"

Wouldn't we understand each other?  What a stupid joke, there was nothing that we did not understand about the other, that is precisely why we were in that place.  Because we knew each other so much that we couldn't give up.  A couple of stubborn fools.  Yes, a stubborn one, because even knowing and knowing your way of thinking, I preferred you to join my cause.  I wanted you by my side, not against me... I wanted a queen.

"You have two options!  You can fight in vain against me for the pursuit of ideals ... or you can fight alongside me for a world where Pokémon can live free from humans."

But as I expected, your answer, if it had been a flame, would be the perfect demonstration that you shouldn't play with fire.

"Not even in a dream I will be by your side for a goal as utopian and blind as that!!  I'm not going to join you or give up my ideals so easily, with or without Zekrom, I'm going to kick your ass!"

Then it happened, your gaze became electricity in the air and everything around me made it difficult for me to breathe.  Who was that Touko?  I've never seen her before.  And even though you were taking from me everything I wanted, everything I believed was the right thing ... Why was I so immensely happy?  Why was I smiling?  It was me who was losing... but I was happy, if it was you who was winning.  If it was the world Touko wanted, there should be no mistake in it.

My accidentally happily ever after.

Then many things happened and my whole world collapsed because of the small momentary happiness I had with you.  My father rejected me, I was hated by everyone, and even though I received the forgiveness of the champion, I could not do anything but want to cry.  I didn't know the reason for my tears as soon as I felt them, once we were alone in that empty throne room, empty like my heart.  It was your words that saved me.  They saved me from my father...

"He is not a monster!  Don't you dare talk about N like that! I will never forgive you!"

They saved me even when everyone turned their back on me, you came looking for me.  They saved me when, even after my mistakes and my selfishness, your two arms wrapped me warmly.  If this was my punishment for sinning I was happy to receive it for being by your side.  But it wasn't something I was allowed, that's why... with being able to see you smile once more even after telling you the whole truth, even after having almost spoiled everything, if I could see you smile just one more time.  It was enough.

The way you smile and how you comfort me with your laughter.

So I decided that it must be someone worthy of you, someone you could really love as a friend, someone who deserves the champion's forgiveness... And yours.

"Do not go...!  I like you, N! "

If it was you, it was okay to let you go, to get away from you to be someone worthy, so that at that moment when I told you my name, the next time we met, you would call me for it.

"Natural Harmoria Gropius, next time we meet, call me by my name. Only you can do it, if it's you... "

Your phrase back then I never understood and when time passed and I realized what it meant I understood that I had rejected your feelings at that time.  And even though you were crying, even though you held my hand, even though you screamed over and over again not to go away.  I was selfish as usual.

"Touko!  You said you had a dream, that dream... make it come true!  Dreams and ideals have the power to change the world!  Make it a reality and it will become your truth! Touko, if anyone can, it's you!  Well then..."

Why didn't I stop?  Why did I completely deny your heart and mine?

"Farewell!"

I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open and go take a look,
You are the beginning and the end of every chapter.

After that time passed, two long years passed while I saw the world that you loved in each region where I went, the world of your ideals.  But even though I had fun every day and was happy to be able to accept and have been accepted in this world.  There was something I didn't have, something I was missing.

Something that called me towards Unova every time I heard the stories of that region, every time I saw the color black, or every time I looked towards the moon...

Had the moon shone so little before? In this world where I was supposed to be happy, where I was supposed to have everything I wanted and shared with my pokemon, in this same world I was missing something important.  Then your words from that moment echoed in my head like a rattle and the belated answer came to me.

The feeling you tried to tell me at that moment, what you tried to convey... You had not saved me just because you considered me your friend, you had not come this far just out of friendship.  You didn't cry for having to give up on me to save everyone just for friendship. I was just the man you loved.  And when I realized that while in Sinnoh, I couldn't help but go back.

If I could see you one more time, if I could tell you these unchanging feelings that were in my heart, even if your answer was not the same as before.  Even if I was rejected by you, even if you had made your own life, only if I could appear proudly in front of you and thank you for everything, if I could go and convey my love...

That would be enough.

Who knew that I could be?
So unexpectedly, undeniably happier!

"All I've done is listen to your selfishness, over and over again.  I have nothing to hear anymore.  You ... you didn't even think about me.  You were fine because you weren't thinking of me"

It wasn't true, Touko ...I knew I had no right to be reciprocated, but that wasn't true.  I could never stop thinking about you, thinking that I wanted to go back, thinking that it was you when I saw White for the first time, comparing Rosa with you.  To feel disappointed when no one knew where you were... All the time I wanted to return to you but my fear made it impossible, and still... look at me here, being so selfish again.

“I know I have been selfish, and you have always accepted my selfishness even if you did not agree... So, let me be selfish one more time and tell you how I feel for one last and first time.  After that, you are free to leave or ignore me"

I was prepared to be rejected, I was prepared to completely end this absurd connection that linked us in an idiotic way.  I was prepared for you to break my heart like I did with you years ago, but...

"I love you, Touko"

But just when I thought I would know your reaction just when I thought I knew you, I realized that it's even funny ...to always be wrong with you.

Sit with you rigth here, right here next to me...

"Why did you make me wait for two and a half years to hear those words, you idiot?  I love you too, Natural"