^Caleb^

Thrum Thrum,
Thrum thrum,
Thrum Thrum,

Her heartbeat was the first thing I heard when I woke up.

It's the only I've been able to listen to that will keep me calm.

For the past few weeks, I've been sleeping by her side, finding comfort in her heart monitor.

Today would mark the fourth month of her sleeping. Four months too long.

But I'd wait a lifetime just to see her eyes open. To see a beautiful smile gracing her lips.

I heave a sigh a rub my tired eyes. I stand up from my chair, which has only ever been placed next to her bed, and give my sleeping beauty one soft kiss to her cheek.

I walk through the halls of the clinic, searching for the healer. The only one who has the slightest clue what state my mate is in.

I find her, after searching a few rooms, in her own office. She was hunched over a file looking close at the what's written there.

I knock politely on her open door, causing her to jump up from her chair.

"Oh, jeez—Alpha!" She gasps, while her glasses fall to her face.

I don't say anything back.

She have a few relief chuckles before looking in my eyes. I could only imagine they protruded what I felt inside.

"How is her progress?" I ask.

"She is still stable Alpha, but there are still no signs of when she'll wake up."

Every time I hear those words, my heart sinks further. An Alpha can hope for so long, but with it comes heartache.

I long for my mates eyes to open. I spend nights listening to her steady, weak heartbeat, and the machine breathing oxygen into her.

If only I was there to protect her.

I would've killed that bastard.

I didn't respond to her, I just stood feeling tightening settle in my chest.

I gave her a nod after a few silent moments, then left.

I didn't want to go back to her room, as much as I needed her, I needed to check on my packs security.

It was hard.

Being in the same room as your mate, feeling the bond, or hearing her heart flutter.

I always dreamed of loving my mate with everything I have to give, and I still plan to. She just needs to hold in there a little longer.

*

"Here you are, Alpha." Marie smiled at me while she handed me lunch and I nodded in appreciation.

I wasn't hungry, and haven't been for a few days now but I have keep up with my nutrition.

Every minute my thoughts keep zoning right back to my mate. There isn't a time where I don't think about her and it's starting to effect me.

Especially when I'm in pack meetings, they'll be rambling on about important things and I'll be somewhere else with her.

Somehow I have to accept that she might not wake up, at least for the time being because I have to focus on my pack and everyone's needs.

Even if it means to stop visiting her all together.

This is the lamest chapter ever. But I'm determined to keep moving forward. Momma ain't raise no bitch.

If anyone has any suggestions on what I can write, lemme know.