Andy's P.O.V

After we left the party we went straight to Emily's house and headed for her room, I jumped on her bed just wanting to escape in the fuzzy sheets.

"Oh no you don't! I've been incomprehensibly patient, now spill." She says firmly.

"Emily.....I had no idea you could say words with more than three syllables." I say in disbelief.

"Stop deflecting and tell me what happened." She says ignoring my comment. I sat up reluctantly and told her everything that happened, from the drinks to the dancing. I cringed at the memory of some things I did at the party. When I started talking about the argument, the pain from his words returned and so did my tears.

"I'm going to kill him when I see him." She says when I finish, pulling me into a bear hug, causing me to laugh a bit.

My phone buzzes and Emily picks it up.

" 'The Devil' is calling." She says confused showing me the caller ID.

"That's Nate...." I reply, Emily answers the call in complete rage.

"Hello dickface, this is Emily. My best friend, Andy....you know the HOPELESS ROMANTIC WHOSE GOING TO DIE ALONE, can't come to the phone right now." She finishes pleasantly.

"Emily I just need to ta-"

"You don't need shit! Just let me get my hands on you Nathaniel, your a dead man." She says with a psychopathic laugh.

"Emily just hang up." I say.

"Is that Andy? Tell her I'm sorry, I'm at her house right now but her parents said she's staying by you. I just want to talk to her." He says, I clench my chest and shake my head when Emily offers the phone.

"Well she doesn't want to see you. So bye FUCKTARD!" She shouted before hanging up proudly.

"I just want to go to sleep." I say and she nods simpaticaly, I don't even remember falling asleep. I just remember my pillow being slightly damp and the pain.

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I woke up to the annoying buzzing of my phone, with over fifty miss calls and hundreds of text messages all from Nate. I groan as the memory of everything that happened last night returned to me all at once.

When did my life become one of crying over boys, going to parties and waking up with a slight hangover. I always avoided things like this because it always lead to trouble, now look at me.

I slip out of the bed and make my way to Emily's bathroom. After erasing all traces of last night, I borrow one of her plain shirts and shorts pants. I quickly shoved my stuff into a bag and quietly slipped out her house. I knew she'd want to talk and she'd be worried and I just need a little me time now.

I placed my earphones in my ears and blasted my favourite album 'Don't you' as I started walking, it suited my mood and made me happy despite the obvious sad undertones.

The streets were mostly clear and the wind was strong today, I had a secret love for nature and I smiled as I watched the trees dance with the wind. I loved the small things like that, the simple clouds in the sky, the random butterfly. Those little things brightened my mood as I continued to walk.

I knew I'd have to face Nate eventually, but right now I didn't want to think about him, so I didn't. I walked peacefully and slowly made my way to my house.

Eventually I got to my house and made my way up the patio stairs and unlocked the door. I closed it gently behind me and tiptoed to my bedroom, it reflected the old me, tidy and simple. No matter how much I denied it, I was changing. In the short, few weeks I spent with Nate, I managed to loose myself a bit and I didn't know if the changes were for the best or the worse.

You were all I ever needed

My mind focused on those lyrics but I tried to brush it off, I shut my eyes and took a deep breath before opening them. I opened my eyes and looked out the window again to see Nate walking towards the house.

I felt my heart sink.

I watched him as he made his way to the house, he looked messy and distorted with very clear, dark bags under his eyes. As he reached our lawn he looked around before heading up the patio steps which was out of my view. He came back down after a few minutes and looked up at the house. We immediately made eye contact when his eyes landed on my window and I quickly jumped to the ground, causing my earphones to come out in the process.

"Andy! I saw you!" He shouts, his voice sounded raspy and saddened. I stay on the ground not daring to get up, after some time spent shouting he eventually left.

I made my way to my bed and layed down with a sigh, I focused on my ceiling fan and eventually drifted off. When I woke up it was night time and my phone was dead, I didn't bother to charge it. I made my way to the kitchen in search of food but only met my parents.

"We didn't even know you were home." My mom says clearly suprised to see me.

"And you weren't worried?" I ask.

"We assumed you were still at Emily's and we know that you've never given us a reason to worry." My dad says whiling chopping up some vegetables. Dad was a chef, he and mom started up a restaurant a few years back and spent almost all there time there.

"The Smith's boy came looking for you last night." My mom says eyeing me suspiciously, "he looked very worried.........boyfriend maybe?" She asks trying to hide her curiosity but failed miserably.

"No. Friend.....actually I don't know anymore." I reply saddened by my own words, the thought of Nate no longer being my friend was surprisingly making me sad.

"Well were just happy that you know a boy. You always look so lonely and depressed." My dad says with a smile, "we thought you were a lesbian. Which is totally okay honey."

"I'm not gay." I deadpan eating some grapes.

My mom hands my dad a ten dollar bill and I sigh, "you bet on my sexual preference?" I say in disbelief.

"We'd love you even if you were." My dad says ignoring my question, we ate together and watched movie after. I spent the rest of the night doing my homework and started watching Shadow Hunters immediately after.

Alec was so hot, God damn he gave me chills. I soon fell asleep to Alec's beautiful face.

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I wake up to my mom yelling to me about chores.

Why do parents think its acceptable to wake someone up by shouting?

It's very scary to wake up to screams.

I hadn't gone to school the entire week, I wasn't ready to face Nate and barricaded myself in my bedroom. I was a big baby when it came to confronting people and just ran from the situation.

Nate came to the house daily and his calls never stopped, Emily visited giving me my notes and checking up on me. Even David came by, bringing with him some ice cream and we watched The Fault In Our Stars.

I lie on my bed reading after I finished my chores and my quick morning routine, I hear a knock on the door disturbing my peace.

"Come in." I shout. The door opens revealing my mom who was blushing for some reason.

"Mom why is your face so red? You ca-" before I could finish my sentence my eyes landed on Nate who is walking in behind her.

The sight of him causes a hitch in my breathing, I immediately sit up and glare at my mom.

"What? You'll thank me someday." She says as she pushes Nate further into my room, "your father and I have to go to the restaurant, so just don't do anything I won't do." She says with a wink before shutting the door.

What is wrong with that women?

I look at Nate who is already staring at me, when I divert my eyes he moves over to my bed and sits next to me. I move away creating some distance between us. We sit in silence, I don't dare to speak first and quickly shoot a glance his way. He's staring at his hands as he plays with his fingers, with a troubled look on his face.

"I'm sorry Andy." He says meeting my eyes, "I'm so so sorry. At the party, I said some awful things, worse than awful.....they were just plain cruel. We were having a great time and I ruined it. I honestly didn't mean them, I don't know what came over me. I'd never intentionally hurt you Andy. I'm an asshole, I know that, but not to you.....never to you." He says looking at me desperately.

"I never saw myself actually enjoying to company of someone like you, but I do and your someone I can't afford to loose." He looks at his hands and takes a deep breath, "I-I'm afraid of rejection.....because I'm adopted." He pauses for a second, he probably doesn't like talking about it.

"It's obvious that my birth parents didn't want me and because they rejected me I hate when others to the same. It makes me feel useless.......unimportant. So when you rejected me.....I took it to heart, more than usual....because it was you rejecting me. It's not an excuse, what I said and did were all horrible and I hate myself for making you cry." He gets closer and grasps my hands, "I'm so sorry Andy, I seriously am. Please......please forgive me." He finishes holding my hands pleadingly.

I watched our hands, I hated him so much that night and wanted nothing to do with him. But yet here I am wanting to do nothing more than to forgive him. He opened himself up to me so much, he told me things he probably hated talking about. His words were hurtful and still left a sting, but it would hurt more to lose him.

I looked back at his face, he was focusing on me patiently awaiting an answer.

"Um....what you said hurt because it was true." I say.

"No I wa-"

"Let me finish. It was true and it hurt hearing it. I hate facing things I don't know and that includes people, in time books became a shield. You were right, I was being a coward." Admitting it felt like both a weight off my shoulders and like a new found burden.

"You've been slowly changing that, you've forced your way into my life and now your a part of it whether I like that or not. In the end, you've become important to me.......I forgive you Nate." I finish looking at him with a weak smile.

Nate let's out a breath and he slowly smiles, one of his honest kind, ones. He pulls me into a hug and I let him, I'd missed his warmth, his scent, his silky hair.....everything about him. He holds me refusing to let me go, his presence completely captured me and I was weak to his touch.

When we eventually separated he reached for a big bag I didn't even notice.

"I have a gift." He announces proudly handing me the bag. I take the bag and dig through it and pull out a very heavy, metal thing only thing I saw was the letters 'VE'.

"Wow. This is.....something." I say faking a smile.

"There's another one you idiot." He says gesturing to the bag, I pull out another metal piece and look at Nate still confused.

"To think I thought you were smart." He says under his breath, before picking up the pieces and heading to my book shelf. He placed the pieces on top and shove them together.

"They are book ends. You put books between them and its holds them." He says looking back at me, "I chose 'love' because you know.....that's like...our thing." He says awkwardly scratching the back of his head.

I stared at them. They were perfect and the love thing touched my heart.

"Don't tell me you still don't understand." Nate says looking at me with agitation.

I shake my head with a smile.

"Well then say something....do you not like it?" He asks nervously.

I walk over to him and hug him, tightly.

"Its perfect. I love it, see what I did there?" I ask with a giggle.

"Yes I do." He replies resting his chin on my head.

"Thank you Nate." I say snuggling myself deeper into his arms. We stood there silently looking at the book ends, it was like a little symbol of us and I loved it.

I loved us.

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