I am trying to rise from the deepest depths of the ocean I am drowning in, fighting for breath that I know will never come.

My mind is under water and it has caged my wings forever, as I feel so alone with no one trying to help me be free.. not even my blood.

I'm doomed with this heavy feeling that weighs me down even when I try to stay positive and knowing I have so much good to look up to, God has so much planned for me that I talk and cry a pool for him at night under my invisible watered cage.

Will this heaviness ever go away?

Will my heart ever stop hurting?

Will anyone take my side?

Am I cursed with this never ending pain and loneliness?

Does anyone hear my silent screams of help?

Does anyone see the searing pain in my eyes?

I want to give up but I don't want to, God oh God be with me in spirit! AMEN!