Dearest the hugs you give me so tight but gentle,

Love the prickly kisses you give on my cheek from your beard being untamed,

Babe, the way you make me feel as you tell me about your day...

The I love you's that we share that makes me feel so much more then a friendlier meaning.

Can't you see? You big moron, look deep within and you will see that I want you to be ALL mine and only mine. 

I miss our kisses, the hand holding, the way you looked at me, all the gushy sweet and deep tenderness that you showed me. I wasn't use to it though, so I pushed you away and I hope you understand my why's one day.

I still see that you do not understand how love works yet which makes me afraid since I don't know how this emotion works either, for growing up with toxic family does that to you dearest.

I don't want to hurt you again, I don't want you yelling in pain again, I don't want you sad again, I want to be as tender as your white aura, I want to be as caring as the way you held me when we were alone, I want your kisses again and again until we don't know whats what. 

Forgive me for what goes through my head, sin. I love you and I am not sure if you are my soulmate or not, I wanna give us a try again but I don't want to ask afraid of rejection.

I go see you everyday because you make me happy dear, you make me smile, thank you for always being there. But I won't be asking you to be mine this time, I'll leave it all to you.