Sadness,

She never leaves,

Buried deep down into the souls core,

Comes to the surface out of nowhere,

Please spear me as my tears come to play,

Let me feel but do not kill me for my heart hurts so bad already,

My heart hasn't stopped hurting since years back,

God be with me as I go through opening new wounds and grieving as I let some go while working on the new,

Numbness tries to creep in,

It wins,

Someday's I want to be around others and other days I lock my room door shutting out the world,

I feel sick, 

My soul feels restless,

I know she needs help,

But I am treacherous,

There are times I just want to scream and cry in agony but instead I cry hard in silence,

Dont want my family to see it as weakness,

Dont want my family to try to attack as they do,

God my master of all good and balance,

Be with me for I am growing tired,

God give me the strength for I am always trying,

I am your servant dear lord,

I love you even through this deep blanket that covers me called sadness....

~Nessa