there are feelings worse than heartbreak and i know that to be true
because my heart isn't broke and i'm not in love with you
yet my head is spinning and i can barely say despair
and i've been feeling lately like i can't get enough air
i want to be angry, i want to scream and cry and shout
i want to be yelling, but i don't know what about
i do not have a reason to want to lose my mind
i do not look too closely for i fear what i may find
i'm dying to feel something for someone who will see
i haven't felt anything real since the night you left me
and it's not that i'm still pining, good god that ship has sailed
but i can't help overthinking, was it him or me who failed?
am i just an empty shell with no one left inside?
will i ever find someone with whom i can confide?
i wish i wasn't like this, an attention seeking freak
i wish to be someone strong, no longer frail or meek
my rhyming scheme's mediocre that much does ring true
but will i ever love someone who will really love me too?