I hate it wen people say depression is a disease
Like I'm just sick
Like I can take some medicine and be ok
Depression is a battle I face with my mind every day
It's a battle to get out of bed
To get my morning routine done
To make it through a school day
To survive yet another lecture from my parents
To try to act like nothing is wrong

Just because I smile doesn't mean
I'm happy
It's easy to fake a smile
When you've been doing it for so long
Practice lines roll of your tongue
Much more smoothly after awhile
Trying to act like you're ok
Gets less hard every time you try

But that doesn't mean I'm better
The pain
The sadness
The hatred
It's all still there
It's just been masked with joy and love

The nights are the worst for me
Alone in my room trying not to let
Demons in my head get to me
Trying to find sanity
Trying to believe that I'm not
Completely worthless
Trying to think of someone who
Really cares

People say that depression is a hole
But I think that depression is a
Mountain
A mountain of pain
Hurt
Sadness
Anger
Hatred
Scars
Fear
And we,
The suicidal
The depressed
The lonely
The hurting
The broken
Are at the top looking down
Trying to convince ourselves not to
Jump