July 2018

Sometimes I ask God for someone who will sit with me in a clear night and stares at the twinkling stars.
I planned to travel abroad, search in the city and go to the place too far;
But in my point of view, I understand something-
God will give me that someone in the right time-
In the right time wherein... I don't need to beg to the falling star.

As our solar system rotates, my heart also continually beats.
I ask sometimes, Why on Earth?! Why did I fall in love to that man before?,
Why does my human eyes see you out of the sea of millions of men in this world?

I never expected to love you just as I didn't expect that there are so many Galaxy like Milky Way in the Universe-
So many options-
Sometimes we just didn't notice, sometimes we just don't want to notice;
But if we will just study and focus on that thing or someone, we will learn more about it(her/him) and later we will realize that-
We already love the learning we got.

I used to think that the Earth is the center of the Universe-
That the sun and all the stars rotated around it;
Just as I used to think that you are the Center of my Life-
That my plans, my goals and my everyday just rotate around you;
But that thinking never last, I realized that I'm just imagining things- I assumed things.

I assumed that you love me too,
That's why my dumb mind/feelings continues.
Later, I discovered that I was wrong just as Galilei Galileo discovered things.

Things like truth.
The truth that you didn't love me;
The truth that I don't want to see because it hurts, just like trying to look in the Sun.
We can see the Sun but it hurts- just like truth.

It is just a very sad thing that your love for me is way smaller than I could ever imagine.
If only the fresh air and the starry night can ease the pain,
I will stay outside 'til morning.

Sometimes because of this pain that I felt,
I'm wondering things like-
Maybe the one for me lives in the other Galaxy.

Sometimes I wonder...
Does Science can explain the pain that I feel in my heart?
If it can, then is there any pain reliever for heart aches in the Science Laboratory?

Science is limitless.
No. We just think so.
Science has limits too, just like his love for you.
Don't rely too much on something that just amazing,
Because sometimes there are things that we could never imagine.
Just like the fact that the Universe contains an unimaginable amount of matter and energy.
Like the fact that God's love for us goes far beyond our imagination.

The fact that we can love more than we could ever show or imagine.
The fact that your destiny was maybe the one that is in your side right now.
You just didn't realize- just as we didn't realize that the Universe is larger that anyone of us can ever imagine.
So be happy, if in this universe full of stars and lies- you had found that someone that truly loves you;
Because you're not like me, you don't have my story and I don't have yours.
Maybe I should travel through Nebula's first,
Discover new ideas and ride a rocket before I could meet the right one.

I got mistaken so many times,
A little mistake of falling in love to the wrong person that leaves a tiny little spots of scars in my heart that will exist forever-
I consider this thing as wrong discovery;
And I will never quit, as long as God supplies an air for me to breath-
I will continue to live.

One day... this one day will come,
I believe that even if we exist far from each other with the measurement of distance that could not ever imagined- We will meet.
I still believe because I believe that God's way is beyond limits and His plan is beyond imagination.

We will not meet by chance,
I believe that we will meet because it is intelligently and purposefully planned.
Someday we will meet through God's plan.

Your_Unknown_Writer