Mild tw: questioning self worth

It's strange
I've never felt this before
Warm
Soft
Safe
After what happened
I never thought I'd feel this again.

Safety
It feels familiar
Like a dream long forgotten
But I've finally found it
And it's nice

I love these people I've found
I love this family I've made
But I'm scared
When will I lose it?
It seems inevitable at this point

When will they grow tired of me?
When will they realize how worthless I am?
When will they leave me?
When will they see?
When. That's the question.

That's always the question.