your voice in the back of my head

terror sparks when I hear you speak

my emotions tinged with blood red

and my heart trembles at the havoc you wreak

filthy fingers reaching the corners of my thoughts

I can't get rid of you

I can't feel the happiness that now rots

and I know you don't care, you never do

I was small and I was innocent

I never stood a chance

I didn't know what it was yet

I didn't know what to do with your hands

and although you're long gone

you still lurk in the corners

I still feel all wrong

and my mind lingers on the border

between sane and insane

between love and hate

and the terror you reigned

and the sealing of my fate

just leave me alone

I never want to think of you

I just want to come home

but you ruined that too

I never want to see your face again

I want all this to end.

get out of my head

get out of my bed

I can't even cry alone now

I don't know how

I ever felt safe

my words were such a waste

just leave me alone

just leave me the hell alone