To my now,

I know you're confused,

I know you're scared.

I'm familiar with these feelings,

I've been in your shoes,

But you handle it better.

For me, all I did was run,

I ran and ran and ran.

To my now,

I'm trying to hold on,

I'm trying to keep my heart still,

But I'm not sure

How long I can go on,

This flower isn't delicate,

This love isn't in it's right place,

This flower is weak,

Bruised and battered

To the point of wilting.

To my now,

My special person,

You don't know this

And I'm to blame,

For I loved you too much,

Yet I didn't blossom

To show you my essence,

To let you in,

Because I was scared,

Afraid that truly,

You'd become my light.

Easily attached,

Yet scared to be vulnerable.

And you loved me too little,

To let me into your fire,

To let me into your circle.

We're both at fault,

Maybe we didn't think things through,

Perhaps we rushed into it,

I'm trying to find a bright side,

But all I see are grey clouds,

And lonely people,

In a crowded world.

To my now,

Come what may,

Bonds broken or fixed,

A special place in my heart,

Even if we part.