I can't began to explain my emotions
My emotions are one big ball of yarn with no beginning and no end
I'm a knot you can't untie
I'm a rainy day you wish could go away
I'm a dead plant you're glad that's dead
I'm feel like ice slipping and slipping away
I feel like I'm being dragged by my feet grabbing anything I can touch to get away
My face is dirty full of caked mud you try so hard to scrape off but can't
I'm going down a hole of darkness that has no bottom
Just an endless void of darkness and despair
Alone with thoughts that sound like a crowd at a concert
A heavy metal band my heart goes
Never ending, just keeps going you hate it but you learn to tolerate it
Foggy days I feel you can't see you need light but there is none
You go round and round like a merry go around thats about to fall apart
Thunder you feel wishing you could hide but you can't you're surrounded by buildings and metal
Practically claustrophobic yet it's enjoyable
So alone in a crowd of a thousand people
Wishing one of them would talk to you but wishing none of them ever talk to you
Tears stuck by a dam hidden in your eyes
Never leaving never staying
Resivoir hidden from the world in your eyes no one ever bothers to go into
An overflowing garbage can no one cares to throw away
Surrounded by a million bees you wish would go away but don't want to
Thinking you'd be better off being a blood covered mess alone in the woods crying your pain away
Finally getting peace you've always wanted but didn't want cuz you felt like you weren't deserving of it
Sick to my stomach wanting to throw up the pain but I can't because the pain stays
A life of pain and suffering is all we have
Supposed to talk to someone about feelings I can't describe myself
The only way to is through words that make no sense and metaphors no one understands
I just wanna turn the corner and be over