Hello Roy,

Probably you'll never get this letter. It's dumb, but Al told me it would help with my feelings. So, if you won't even read it, I can try, right?

So, I love you. That's the whole fucking problem. I'm a dumb boy and I feel in love with you, a bastard, my superior military officer, and a GUY. You're a womanizing asshole and we hate each other. It could never work, so I won't even try. I won't tell you. I don't want to see your smug smirk when you mock me, I don't want to hear more jokes I secretly enjoy. Well, maybe I want. That's why I visit your office so often These past days. 

But still, I won't tell you. Not that. I'll take that secret in the grave with me.

I love you, but you hate me. I don't want to be even more of a dumb brat. You like women, every one knows it. So why even try, making a fool out of myself. You'll laugh and joke about it. I feel bad as I am, I don't want to feel even worse. I wish I wouldn't love you. But I do, so I have to live with it. Hopefully my heart will just let it go. Let you go.

I love you, Colonel Bastard Roy Mustang. But you will never love me back. And I can't even hate you for it. A man like you can have everyone. You don't need a half-metal teenage boy with his sins and problems. I don't want to be even more of a burden to you. 

I hope, you'll find a great, perfect person to spend the rest of your life with.  I'll watch from afar. And when I restored Al's body, I'll leave the military. So I don't have to see you and you don't have to deal with me anymore.

Thank you for showing me how love feels. And how to hide my emotions. I hope, you will achieve your goal soon. You wold be a great Fuhrer.

I guess, that's it. So, I'll end this before any Tears hit the paper.

In love (I guess)

~Ed