I want to go back in time.

I want to go back in time because at least back then I could find people to talk to.

Everything was great,doing the thing I love.

But.

How sad am i feeling now that I want to go back in a year that I was hurting everyday,wanting to die and hurting myself?

For the first time in my life,I want to go back to the time I was in pain.

Why?

I am happy now.

Am I?

Surely,the darkness inside me is still here,but it doesn't awaken as often as other times in my life.

Is it awake now?

Why I want to go back?

Do I miss anything from all this pain I had back then?

Pain?

No,why would I miss the pain?

I don't know why I want to go back.

Things then and now are different.

But at least,I am happy now.

I think.

-when the sun is about to go up

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