I'm waiting

Waiting for the pain to come back

To make me hurt

I know it's going to happen

Something will make my heart hurt

I will have to watch blood flow from my wrist

To know my heart isn't really broken

I'm waiting

Waiting for the thoughts that I wish I was dead

The thoughts of who would care If I was gone

Thoughts of why am I here?

To suffer everyday isn't fair

I'm waiting for me to open up to someone again

And they prove I can't trust anyone, just like everyone else did

I've hardened my heart

I push everyone away

It seems the only way to not get hurt

I'm waiting

Waiting for someone to save me

But knowing no one will

No one will ever love me

I watch everyone be happy and I fake it

Their lives are perfect and people love them

I'm all alone

I'm waiting

Waiting for the day when I snap

When I can't be strong anymore and hide my pain

I'm waiting

Waiting for death

Waiting for the day I'll kill myself

Waiting to not feel the pain everyday

Waiting to hopefully be happy for once

Waiting to smile and actually mean it

Waiting for death, its going to be a long wait it seems