we turned on our favorite song
happy
and danced around the kitchen like we used to
we measured side by side
and finished so quickly

as I left the room
to retreat back into my hobbit haven
you say, sadly
"Its an effort to make you smile nowadays"
and go back to washing the dishes

so now I sit in my room
looking back at pictures
on my phone from just a couple of months ago and think sadly,
"it is an effort to make you smile nowadays"
as if I am a completely different person than the one in the photos
because I am
so I continue scrolling through the pictures
trying to pinpoint where it all went

wrong