why is it so easy
to lie
and say you're fine
when you're not
when you're drowning on land
when time blurs your eyes
when jumbled noises are only heard
when you're having an urge in every class
when you're writing but it's not helping
when the weight on your chest is infinitely heavy
when you have to drag your numb body outta bed
when you never leave your room willingly
when the dull ache never leaves
when you can't focus on a single thing
When you're barely able to talk anymore
when it's an effort to fake smile tho you've been doing it for years
when you bite your lips till they bleed
when you want to hug someone but it would be awkward because you'd never let go
when you need to cry but you can't
when everything seems to be going wrong?

maybe so they're not overburdened
maybe so you don't over share
maybe cause they won't understand
maybe because you feel like you already have enough problems and one more will be the tipping point

and they'll leave