There's a pain in my chest
I know what it is but it hurts
Every damn time
And I know it's not for the best

I've had it forever,
Felt it a thousand times
For a thousand years
Then why now is it stronger then ever?

I know it's my anxiety acting up
Again but it just seems
Like everything is my fault lately
And the water just overflows form the cup

The pain starts small
Like a tear drop
But then it grows deeper with each thought
And I find myself trapped in my minds walls

But everything comes jumping at me
Words come slashing at me
Actions come cutting at me
But nothing seems right to me

I don't understand
Why is it worse?
I've had it forever...
It's not like I'm on no mans land

In fact I'm "home"
But you're just getting so loud
And honestly it terrifies me
I just can't stand that tone

I have an irrational fear
I mean, who's scared of loud noises?
Apparently my dumb ass
Every time someone yells, I burst into tears