to jeongguk,

i'm starting to think you like me,

but how foolish am i,

if you really did,

you would've said so before,

because it's too late now.

i'm moving.

if you really did love me,

you would've said something;

you would've tried to stop me.

but you just sat back,

and let it happen.

maybe you thought it wouldn't change anything;

but my parents told me,

that if someone really cared,

they'd cancel.

i guess you didn't take that chance.

and, boy, have you lost something.

it's not worth anything,

i know i'm not,

and i'm sorry for being such a drag.

i'm sorry for being so annoying.

-from, jimin.

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"jeongguk, stop." taehyung yelled.

he wasn't responding.

he didn't want to.

there was nothing to say.

"but..." he whispered.

taehyung closed his eyes.

trying to find a reasonable response.

not finding one, he just sighed.

"i'll miss him."

"i know."

he said.

"as will i."

jeongguk looked up at him.

"but you know what they say."

"i don't."

"if you love something, let it go."

jeongguk's face creased up, cringing inwardly at his friend's words.

he shook his head.

"n-no, i love him too much."

"well, he needs to be free, kookie."

"i know."

he said, shaking.

"but i can't let him go. it hurts."

"he loved you, and he got hurt."

taehyung explained.

"it's time you understand how he felt."

jeongguk looked away.

"y-yeah."

he faced the floor.

"i guess it is."

jimin walked towards them,

not facing jeongguk.

he looked up.

and spoke the words.

the words jeongguk wished he'd never hear.

"i'm leaving."

it was happening.

right now.

his heart,

shattered.

his chances,

gone.

his mind,

mad.

mad?

at him.

for not saying that he loved him sooner.

rather than being a bitch about it,

he should've said something.

something that would've made a difference.

like,

maybe made him stay?

instead of leaving.

but,

now,

he was leaving.

and so was jeongguk's will to live.

"o-oh."

he finally found the words.

taehyung shook his head.

slowly.

and,

for some reason,

altering the speed in which he shook his head,

it made him feel angry at himself even more.

"oh, so soon?"

taehyung spoke,

he didn't even sound sad,

nor mad,

nor surprised,

not phased,

nor bothered,

just a blank face,

and with no emotion in his voice;

almost monotone.

"yeah, it sucks."

jimin replied.

with jeongguk was controlling his breathing.

jimin's arms extended.

he wished that he had gone for taehyung instead.

but,

because of his luck,

jimin went to hug him instead.

his head moved to his ear,

and whispered the words.

the words that made him melt,

right there; and then.

"i love you."

jeongguk's breath hitched.

he couldn't do this.

'i can't do this,'

his mind persuaded his mind set,

telling himself,

that this was his fault,

and in a way,

he wasn't wrong;

but then again,

he was also wrong.

even if he did say that he loved jimin,

his parents would've still said no,

they'd planned this for over a year,

and wouldn't stop it for anyone.

not even the person their son loved.

"i-i'll miss you."

he said.

and jimin smiled,

sadly,

but still smiled.

he tightened the hug.

"we promised to skype, though, right?"

right,

about that,

jeongguk wasn't sure he could do it anymore.

not because he didn't like jimin anymore,

but because he wouldn't be able to handle everything;

not being able to see him in person,

hug him,

whisper things in his ear,

and,

mainly,

to love him.

there were many things,

but words couldn't fullfill them.

so, he decided to leave it.

"y--yeah."

his voice cracked,

but jimin just laughed.

his laugh;

that was another thing.

he hated himself,

so much,

for letting a person like this,

go.

if he could go back in time,

he would've confessed before.

is he'd have known if this was going to happen.

"well,"

he started,

"let's do that, then."

they both nodded,

and taehyung was stood there,

wonder,

how quickly things change;

from hating one another,

to loving one another;

clinging onto each other,

this time;

hoping they don't go,

rather than hoping they don't stay.

he sighed.

"b-bye, have a n-nice flight!"

he managed to yell,

and they shook hands,

formal,

yes,

but that didn't necessarily matter right now.

"see ya,"

taehyung said,

and jeongguk furrowed his eyebrows,

but left it,

because it wasn't worth it.

neither was he,

right now,

because he just watched the love of his life leave in front of him.

"w-wait."

jimin stopped.

why?

who knows.

jeongguk sighed.

it's now or never.

"d-don't go."

he said it.

the words that he been clogging up his mind,

he spoke them.

"j-jeongguk."

jimin choked up.

so,

all this time,

he cared?

wow.

"jeongguk. as much as i'd love to, i can't. i have to go."

"do you?"

yes, that's what he just said.

his mind hated him.

it was clear.

"yes."

jimin sighed loudly.

"if i could choose,"

jimin started,

"i would choose to stay."

why would you choose to stay with someone like me?

jeongguk frowned.

"o-okay,"

was that it? really. he's leaving and you can only say 'okay?'

pathetic.

jeongguk was about to pull jimin into a hug, before he walked off with his head hung low.

"if we meet again, jeongguk."

he said with a sad voice, and left his life.

if we meet?

if we meet, then what?

it won't change a thing.

but he can hope,

for hope is the only thing he has left.

---;---

is this finished yeet i think so ?? woop de bloody doo