You might consider me your friend
But I no longer consider you mine.
Why would I think of you as my friend
If you never even talk to me?

You don't invite me over anymore.
You don't come sit down with me just to talk anymore.
You don't ever call or text me anymore.
You're an empty friend.

The only time I see you
Is when you bump into me by chance.
The only time I hear from you
Is when you text me about breaking up with your latest boyfriend.
The only time I'm not worrying about you
Is never.

I am an introvert.
I don't reach out to people
Because it makes me uncomfortable.
If you want to be my friend
You have to act like one.
You can't just come to me
Only when you need something.

Once upon a time we were friends.
We used to be great friends.
And then...you began to shut me out.
And act out.
And do stupid things you knew I wasn't okay with.
When I confronted you about it
You didn't seem to care how I felt at all.
I felt like I was talking to a wall.

It's been years since we were friends.
Not acquaintances, but friends.
Real friends.
I felt that pain of not knowing you for years
Because once you started acting out
You changed.

You used to be nice
And now you're mean.
You used to be caring
And now you're self-absorbed.
You used to be so happy
And now you're always depressed.
You used to be a goody-two shoes
And now you can't go a day without a cigarette.
You used to drink Dr. Pepper with me
And now you drink vodka.
We used to hang out and talk about things like the meaning of life
But now you're too busy getting high to even bother.
You used to listen to me when I confronted you about your addiction problems
And now you blame me for them.

It's not my fault.
You think I'm upset by what you're doing because of some outside cause...?
"Some outside cause?"
Those were your words, not mine.
You said I had no right
To be upset about what you were doing
Because it had nothing to do with me.
You're wrong.

It had everything to do with me.
You were my best friend for years
And then you shut me out.
You left me alone.
By myself.
You didn't talk to me.
You betrayed me.

I used to think we were one in the same.
You used to be so like me
And it made me not feel alone in this world.
It was comforting
Knowing there was at least one person out there
Who understood me.
And then you changed.
And you left me behind.

So don't expect us to be friends.
We are no longer friends.
I tried so hard to help you through this
But you shut me out.
You want me to go away?
Fine.
I have given up on you anyways.
Two long years of this pain...
I have given up on you.
So don't expect us to be friends
Because you're just an empty friend.