do you ever feel so hopeless?

where maybe your broken scars and insecurities

they just can't be fixed?

no matter how much prayer

no matter how many times people say

"i love you. you're sweet. i wouldn't change you."

but all you want is to keep your mouth shut

to never talk again.

maybe then, people wouldn't feel offended

maybe then, the fighting would stop

maybe then, the people wouldn't think your opinion

was wrong.

that you're always wrong.

the hopelessness, is selfish

it's prideful

and it hurts, but i'm just as human as the next

and maybe it would be better if i didn't speak

then they would care about things i had to say

if i did speak

and i wouldn't get those stares

of... questions

"why are you like this? stop talking."

it hurts

it's prideful

prayer helps

Jesus helps

and i wish that helped me more