I feel numb

It's as if my heart, soul, and emotions have been ripped out,
and all that's left is a black hole.

No fear, joy, sadness, or pain.
Just anger and nothingness.

Sometimes there's the illusion of happiness,
But it disappears on the wind when I try to grab it.

What will bring back my emotions?

If I cut will it help?
At least I'll feel something.
If I cry will they come back?

I can't seem to escape the black hole in me..