Rant

I'm so done, with caring, I really shouldn't care so much.

Why do I let it all get to me, why?

I ask that to myself all of the time.

Maybe I'm too sensetive 

Maybe I just care too much

I shouldn't care so much

But I do, and I don't know why

Sometimes I just want to stop and runaway

I feel alone more times than you can count

But, I'm not

That's the thing I don't have to be alone

But I am

Sometimes I think I need to stop feeling or thinking

Close off my emotions

But, there are always the few people who find a crack

And use it

I need to stop caring so much

Because I shouldn't, I can't

I need to stop caring, and maybe I'll be okay

Maybe?

I don't think I could close off anything though

I can't stop caring

I don't think it's that simple

But, gosh why do I even care

I'm so stupid for caring

So naive, maybe

I don't know anymore.

October 1, 2016 ANM