So, this is what my mind sometimes does when I should be getting to sleep. XD By the time I finished this it was after midnight. It feels good to write a poem again. I haven't written one in ~2 years. No idea how that happened. (That's a lie; I do know. I'd just rather not talk about it. -.-) This is almost more of a song than a pure poem, but I have zero talent for music. (You'd think all my high school friends being wonderful band nerds would rub off on me, but no.) If that's up anyone's alley, feel free to have at it. :) Anyways, here it is!

I ran the race.

But I've stumbled, and I've fallen.

I've lost sight of the prize

That I tried so long to chase.

Why do I try?

This always ends the same.

Why do I try? 

Think this time I'll stay down.

Why do I cry?

These tears won't change a thing.

Why do I try? 

Why do I try? 

I am alone.

The others kept on running.

They didn't see me fall,

And they didn't turn around.

And so I cry.

The ground's really not that bad.

The dirt soaks up my tears,

Though I'm alone with my fears.

Why do I try? 

What's the point of it all?

Why do I try?

I've lost the will to rise.

Why do I cry?

My tears have blinded me.

Why do I try? 

Why do I try?

I hate myself

In my moments of weakness.

I'm so fragile and afraid.

Maybe that's why they left me here.

I know I'm weak;

My failures hold me down. 

My goals seem out of reach.

Have I fallen too far?

Why do I try? 

If I rise, I will fall.

Why do I try? 

Is there hope left for me?

Why do I cry? 

I should be used to this.

Why do I try? 

Why do I try? 

I've no more tears.

I think I've hit rock bottom.

I can't feel anymore,

Cause I threw away my heart.

Now I'm awake

When I should be fast asleep,

Won'dring if it was a mistake

That I didn't continue to run.   

Maybe I'll try

To stand up one more time.

Maybe I'll try

Believing one more day.

I still can't cry;

I'll pray for a new heart.

I think I'll try.

I think I'll try.

What do I have to lose?