i never thought i'd truly be

a being possessed

by jealousy

she's heinous and strong

a jade green monster

her motives are wrong

only hate do they foster

and yet

yet i willingly say

and do what she asks

and relish in all

the pain of her tasks

she numbs all that hurts

all that aches

by consuming and living

off all that she takes

sometimes the guilt

clouds my green eyes

until i see the person

who my obsession drives

and then i remember

as i see her with him

what makes me weak

and i let jealousy win