there is something amiss
that i can not dismiss
and it's in my heart
a broken piece or missing part

for each breath i take
each beat it makes
is for a man no one should love
no man destined for Heavens above

he is dark and night defended
anger and pain not apprehended
unleashing darkness undepicted
nor do i go uninflected

yet still i crawl weeping back
for this i know my heart does lack
it lacks a will to stay away
from a man for which it will decay

an addict i am
even knowing he's damned
to his touch and his kiss
all through which i surely remiss

and though i know all i face
is tragedy and tortured grace
all i see are lips and eyes
and greedily inhale his spoon fed lies