It tears me apart from the inside out
and all I can do is watch
As my mouth opens and closes like a fish out of water.
the words I try to spout,
They never seem to leave me.
And when they finally manage to
The only thing I'm left with is regret.
Regret for the wrong thing being said.
Regret for who I am.
Regret for everything I've done
And while I know
I know
I know
It's not my fault.
I'm fine.
I'm overreacting.
How can I stop myself from the depression that encompasses me at every turn
How can I save myself from drowning beneath the surface
As my fingers graze the fresh air my lungs so desperately call for
So desperately cry out for
How
How
How
What do I need to do
Who do I need to be
Someone just tell me
Because
God
Would it be so much
Easier.