You tell me that you love me,

yet never do you show,

a hint of adoration;

I will never know.

My mind says to forget you,

yet the heart will not let go.

The stream of tears are endless,

but this pain I will not show.

I hide it with my anger,

in hope it goes away,

but it will never leave me,

it always seems to stay.

I hate how I forgive you,

even when I know,

this circle's never ending,

yet I never let you go.

Mum says to forget you,

that you're not worth my while,

but every so often,

the memories make me smile.

I remember you'd hug me

and whisper goodnight,

as you tucked me in

and turned out the light.

I remember the days,

when you held me so close,

told me you loved me,

as you played with my toes.

You sewed up my teddy, and taught me to dance.

I gave you my heart, my life you'd enhance.

You'd play hide-n-go-seek,

and see me every week.

I would come visit,

and you'd kiss my cheek.

But those days are over,

we've just grown apart.

Yet still for some reason,

you're still in my heart.

As all these memories come flooding back,

I realise that we've fallen off track.

I guess what I really wanted to say

is I miss you every single day.

I try to ignore it, I try to move on.

But the truth is I miss you, my daddy is gone.

You left me for others more perfect than I,

a new family, that you can supply.

I hate you. I love you. I want you to die.

No. I don't. I want you alive.

These thought are conflicting and driving me mad!

I'm so fucking angry, yet so bloody sad.

Daddy come back I need you so bad...

I don't want to do it, but with choice I have none.

Being this sad, it just isn't fun.

I need to let go, I have to move on;

and with this poem, I declare you gone.

My life starts anew, my heart is now free.

The thread that connects us, no longer will be.

I'll cut all connections, including your name.

My children won't see you and that is a shame.

On one final note, I'd like you to know,

my heart's shred to pieces;

I couldn't let go.

My childhood was broken,

my faith in you gone.

I hope you feel proud;

Turns out mum was right all along.

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To a dad who was never there,

To be a father, means you give someone unconditional love and support. You are supposed to feel loved, safe and wanted when with your father. You have let me down tremendously and for that i can never forgive you. I know you won't see this but I'll say it anyway, you are possibly the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. Enjoy your life you selfish, inconsiderate monster and when you realise your mistake, know I cannot and will not give you another chance. You've crossed the line and there is no more coming back. Goodbye forever.

To anyone who may feel like this, please don't hesitate to talk to me about it. I know I can never relieve your pain, but I can understand it and will be a willing ear for you to talk to.
Thanks for reading, love you all.