Inspired by Citizen Soldier's song Limit

When my world started caving in it broke me and it made me a poet for the things that people leave unsaid.
So tell me, where do you run when you're at your limit?
And tell me who can you trust to be the one you witness you come undone?
If I'm being honest, I don't feel like someone I can love.
I'm so close to choosing death over the feeling of not being enough.
If I'm being honest, I wish I could heal and say it's done.
I just don't know how I'm going to fight when I'm at my LIMIT.
I think I've reached my LIMIT.
But I learned how to live with it.
Let me tell you back when I was 12 my mental health went down spiraling
I was told I was choosing to feel this way by someone I thought I could trust.
They knew the situation at home when my baby sister got cancer at 2 years old.
I went down a dark path that day.
Even now I still get that urge to go back to self-harm.
I got the help to deal with these thoughts and urges, I thought it would fix everything that the urge would disappear.
I trusted medicine to save me, but it feels like it's killing me.
I pray that there's an ending because I don't want to die inside my head.
So, where do you run when you're at your limit!
So, who can you trust to be the one to witness you come undone.
I don't feel like someone I can, I don't think it's worth it talking about the thoughts I want to end to with a gun.
Because I just want to heal and say it's done.
I don't want to run, but I don't know how I'm going to fight when I'm at my LIMIT.
I think I've reached my LIMIT.
But I learned how to live with it.
So if you're sick in ways that no one understands, I hope you know you're not alone.
If we walk through hell we might as hold hands.
We should make this a home.
Where do you run when you're at your limit!
And who can you trust to be the one to witness you come undone.
I don't feel like someone I can love, so close to choosing death over the feeling of not being enough.
Just wish I could heal and say it's done.
I don't want to run!
But I don't know how I'm going to fight when I'm at my LIMIT.
Yeah, I think I've reached my LIMIT.
But together we can live with it.
That's my story, so what's yours.
-Liz/Numa