i must be broken

i may feel love
but not fully
at least not how love's supposed to be
they say I'm weird
it's just a phase
someone will change my mind at the right place
I've heard it before
from my own head
but i still feel like I'm incomplete

the voices scream
I'm feeling numb
will someone ever be so dumb
to love someone
whose love is wrong
so twisted that most people miss it

i want to be like everyone
but my way of loving is keeping me
away from all the so called fun

i have to change, to pretend
what other choice do i have
in the end they will all turn away

i'm just broken
and i know
it's the worst part of it all
like i was never meant
to love at all,
who they want me to
like i was born flawed

not how loves supposed to be
i can't change
trust me, i wish i could
i just want to feel understood
but, who will listen?
no one does

so i'm left,
broken
shattered
and scarred

with my broken
and insecure
heart

...

To people who know me in real life, please don't take it personally. I love you guys like family. (Because at least you get me) xo