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Erratic Depression

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The questions are ever haunting

Like an untold melody in my head

Part of me is forever drowning

As I lay unseeing on my bed

This utter lack of motivation

Has become a damning way of life

But I can't seem to find a reason

To break through my bitter strife

Instead I've resigned myself

To the ubiquitous emptiness

Wasting time

I guess

It suffocates my senses

Tires out my being

But crying won't fix

What I'm not feeling

Useless, lazy, a waste of space

I can't find a way out of the dark

Even though it's temporary

The feelings are scarily stark

Why the thick shadow chooses me

I'll probably never know

For now I'm a brief prisoner

Struck with irrational woe.

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THIS was what I tried to write yesterday...but instead came up with something else entirely. If anyone understands what I'm getting at with this poem, then kudos to you for seeing in my messed up head :)

I guess this is how I've been feeling lately, not really sure why, but, as I said, it'll pass eventually.