Remember when we were younger and I was your little sister?
We used to go everywhere together,
Almost all the photos in the house have you in them.

Remember when we traveled?
My grandparents loved you,
We bought you so many things.

Remember when you used to treat me like a sibling?
Why has that gone away now,
It feels like we are just strangers.

Remember when you lied?
You stole my parent's money,
You treated our grandfather like dirt,
You ruined our relationship.

Remember when I loved you?
When I was a smiling little girl,
Pigtails in hair,
Hugs everyday?

Was this all a lie?
Did you use me to get to my parents?
Did you use my innocence to slip past the walls in my family.
Did you even love me at one point the way I loved you?

The saddest part is that I still love you.
You are my big brother,
The one that would drive me to school,
The one that would give me hugs unlike everyone else.

I wish you were a faded memory.

(Why cant i fucking sleep whenever I think about him, I remember him being my big brother and it feels like my heart was ripped out. I want to cry but at the same time I feel numb. I love him so goddamn much but I know it was all fake, it was a fake sibling relationship so he could lie and steal. Im gonna go sob or stare at the wall until i pass out now)