I never thought I would have to say good-bye,

Not even a farewell.

The words that she spoke to me, 

Seemed far off, like a dream. 

Saying good-bye was not like I thought it would be.

I imagined more tears,

More pain, and sorrow.

What actually happened though,

I'd rather not say, but I am forcing myself to paint the picture.

As we stood in line, waiting for the inevitable call,

I tried to pay attention, to give her my all.

None of the words she said stuck to my mind though.

Losing a best friend, to something like this,

Makes it feel like it is not true at all. 

She is not actually leaving, I pretty much convinced myself.

It isn't like she is moving to a different state. 

I will see her in school next year. She will be there for me during high school.

We will still be together, she can't be leaving me. 

I heard the blaring sound of the flight attendant calling her flight. 

I hadn't even realized we were holding hands,

But when I had I didn't want to let go. 

I stood up, but didn't start walking, 

Just looked forward. 

She looked at me. 

It will be okay, she said

But it sounded like it was hundreds of miles away. 

I felt her hand on my cheek, 

Realized she was wiping a tear that escaped my eye. 

She pulled me into a hug,

I could hear her heartbeat in her chest. 

We stood there, just holding eachother

Until her parents tapped her shoulder. 

It seemed like we were standing there for both a million years and just one second. 

We pulled apart,

Even more tears slipped out of our tears.

"I'll be back for you. I promise."

I nodded and pull her back into a hug. 

Tears were in my eyes

Yet I didnt feel sad.

I didn't feel sad, or angry or anything. 

I was completely numb.

I stayed where I was until I watched her disappear in the crowd of passengers.

I don't remember driving home. I don't remember walking out of the airport.

I do remember her promise though.

She hasn't made good on her promise yet.

She doesn't remember me. 

My best friend, 

Doesn't remember who I am.

Sure, she vaguely knows who I am,

But the last time she texted me, or Snapped me

Was at least two years ago.

She made a promise, and she gave up on me. 

I gave her time,

I text her and try to get into contact with her

She doesn't care for me anymore.

She has moved on from me.

She has thousands of new friends, 

New adventures.

I guess I am still stuck in denial.

I haven't made any new friends.

I tried but I have never been able to find a friend like her.

I wonder if she'd remember me if I were to die

Or if she'd keep up this charade.

My mom said, "She is a friend you want to keep.

You will be friends for forever."

Sorry to tell you mom, but you are wrong. 

Even the best of friends can leave you hanging in an even worse position than what you were in before.