I hate taking about this
so I'll put a trigger warning before we start, okay?

so.... my almost one month clean went to one minute pretty quick
I'm sorry
I'm stressed
I'm sad
I'm so fucking pissed off at the world and I'm mad I can't do anything about it
I can't scream
if I cry I'm told to shut up
I can't take it
being in a house full of ignorant assholes and having things happen that are out of my control
everyone around me seems to be crumbling and I can't take it
the only sane person in my school felt so alone that she got into home schooling
I could have done something about it but I was too blinded by someone I thought could like me back and I'm so mad at myself that I didn't smarten up and talk to her
im done with my parents always acting like they're all high and mighty know it all
I'm going to fail this year without a doubt if I don't do something about it but it doesn't matter how much I want something it never seems like I want it enough
I'm so self destructive and I hate it
all I want to do is beat the living shit out of someone and it scares me
I'm just so done
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remember everyone has an inner pretty setter
drink yO milk and keep on sinning
xoxo - aiden