why have i been having sm writers block lately

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As the credits rolled and the three of them stretched out on the couch, Jeongin yawned dramatically and stood up. "Alright, it's been fun, but Jay, you should probably head home now. You've been here all day."

Jay smirked, throwing an arm lazily around Jungwon's shoulders. "I don't mind staying longer."

But before Jeongin could argue, Jungwon shook his head quickly, clutching Jay's hoodie sleeve like a lifeline. "No. He's staying."

Jeongin stared at the two of them in disbelief. "Seriously? You guys are attached at the hip now or what?" He sighed, rubbing his temples. "Fine. If you're not gonna leave willingly, I'm calling backup."

Jungwon groaned. "Jeongin, no—"

But Jeongin had already pulled out his phone, smirking as he dialed. "Hey, Jake? Yeah, your cousin is basically living here now. Wanna come pick him up?"

Jungwon shot Jeongin a betrayed look. "You're the worst."

Jeongin just grinned. "I'm the best. You'll thank me when you stop acting like a lovesick puppy."

Not long after, Jake arrived at their apartment, leaning against the doorframe with a smug look. "Well, well, well. You've really taken a liking to Jungwon, huh?"

Jay rolled his eyes. "Shut up."

Jeongin, never one to let an opportunity slip, grinned devilishly. "If you like him so much, why don't you just move in with him?"

Jungwon froze mid-sip of his drink, choking a little. Jay, however, looked unbothered and leaned closer. "Not a bad idea."

Jungwon sputtered, eyes wide. "Y-You're kidding."

Jake laughed, nudging Jay. "Yeah, that's the kind of impulsive stuff he'd actually do."

Jeongin smirked. "Careful, Jungwon. He might actually start bringing his stuff over little by little."

Jungwon groaned, covering his face in his hands. "I hate all of you."

Jay grinned and ruffled his hair. "Nah, you love me."

Jake sighed. "Alright, lover boy, time to go."

Jungwon reluctantly let go of Jay's hoodie sleeve, mumbling a quiet, "See you tomorrow?"

Jay smiled. "Of course."

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Jungwon had barely stepped inside Jay's apartment before he realized just how normal this had become—showing up unannounced, finding Jay skipping classes like it was nothing, and yet somehow still managing to ace every exam. It irritated him, but also, in some weird way, it was impressive.

Today was no different. Jay was on a business call, his deep voice echoing through the apartment as Jungwon quietly made his way to the kitchen, deciding to wait it out. He sat on one of the stools, scrolling mindlessly on his phone, but his mind wasn't really on it.

When the call finally ended, Jungwon peeked his head out from behind the fridge, only to find Jay leaning against the doorframe, his eyes fixed on him in a way that made Jungwon's entire body heat up. It wasn't the usual teasing smirk Jay threw his way—it was something heavier, something that made Jungwon suddenly aware of the way his grey shorts barely covered his thighs, or how his tank top clung to his chest with every breath.

The weight of Jay's gaze traveled down his body, lingering at places that sent shivers down Jungwon's spine. His cheeks burned, the warmth creeping down his neck, and he swallowed hard. "What—what are you looking at?" he mumbled, fidgeting under the intensity of Jay's stare.

Jay, however, didn't even try to hide it. His lips curled into a smirk, eyes dark with something Jungwon wasn't sure he was ready to name. "Just appreciating the view," Jay said, voice thick and lazy, like he had all the time in the world.

Jungwon rolled his eyes, pretending like his knees weren't weak from that comment. "Gross." He tried to sound annoyed, but his voice wavered just slightly, betraying him. He turned around, pretending to rummage through the fridge, hoping Jay wouldn't notice how flustered he was.

Jay, of course, noticed everything. "You should wear those shorts more often," he said casually, strolling up behind Jungwon and leaning over him, way too close.

Jungwon tensed, pressing himself against the counter, his heart racing. "Shut up," he muttered, but it lacked his usual bite.

Jay just chuckled, brushing past him as he grabbed a bottle of water. "Make me."

Jungwon swore his face couldn't get any redder.

Jungwon glared at Jay, trying to regain his composure, but the smug look on Jay's face only made it worse. His heart was hammering against his chest, and he could barely think straight. "I will," Jungwon shot back, voice steadier than he expected.

Jay leaned in, their faces inches apart, his breath warm against Jungwon's ear. "How, kitten?" he murmured, his voice low and teasing, sending a shiver down Jungwon's spine.

Jungwon gulped, backing up slightly, but Jay only followed, cornering him against the fridge. His hands gripped the counter tightly as Jay's lips ghosted over his skin, stopping just at the crook of his neck.

"Give me permission," Jay whispered, his lips barely brushing against Jungwon's sensitive skin, "and I'll mark you till you drop, kitten."

Jungwon's breath hitched, his resolve crumbling under the weight of Jay's presence. His body felt hot all over, and he couldn't stop the way his head tilted slightly, offering more. He swallowed hard, his voice coming out soft, almost trembling. "I—I..." He hesitated, and Jay pulled back slightly, eyes dark with expectation.

"I want words, kitten," Jay urged, his lips curving into a smirk.

Jungwon's lips parted, his cheeks flushed, and his voice barely above a whisper. "Y-yes..."

Jay's smirk deepened, his hands moving to Jungwon's waist, pulling him even closer. "Good boy."

Jay didn't waste a second after Jungwon's hesitant "Y-yes," his lips crashing against Jungwon's with a hunger that made the younger melt into him. Jungwon gasped against his mouth, his fingers curling into the fabric of Jay's shirt, trying to hold on as the older male took complete control.

Jay's hands slid down Jungwon's sides, gripping his waist firmly before hoisting him onto the kitchen counter with ease. Jungwon's legs instinctively wrapped around Jay's hips, pulling him closer. Jay groaned into the kiss, deepening it, his tongue exploring Jungwon's mouth with an intensity that left him breathless.

"You taste so sweet, kitten," Jay murmured against his lips before trailing kisses down his jawline, pressing open-mouthed kisses against his neck. Jungwon shivered at the sensation, his body arching into Jay's touch.

Jay took his time, savoring every inch of skin he could reach. His teeth grazed against the sensitive spot just below Jungwon's ear, and Jungwon let out a soft whimper. That was all Jay needed to hear—his lips latched onto the spot, sucking hard enough to leave a mark. Jungwon's head lolled back, his fingers clutching Jay's shoulders, lost in the sensation.

Jay pulled back just enough to admire his work, his dark eyes drinking in the sight of Jungwon's flushed cheeks and the deep red mark blooming on his neck. A satisfied smirk tugged at his lips. "Look at you," he whispered, running his thumb gently over the fresh mark. "Perfect."

Jungwon barely had time to recover before Jay's lips were back on him, trailing lower, leaving a trail of kisses down his collarbone, each one kissed like it was a prized possession. "You're mine now, kitten," Jay murmured against his skin, his voice sending shivers down Jungwon's spine. "Every mark... proof of it."

Jungwon bit his lip, his heart pounding in his chest as Jay pressed another lingering kiss to his neck. He felt like he was burning from the inside out, completely undone by Jay's touch.

"J-Jay..." Jungwon breathed, his voice shaky.

Jay pulled back slightly, his fingers brushing over Jungwon's flushed face. "Yeah, kitten?" he asked, his voice softer now, but the teasing edge still lingered.

Jungwon swallowed hard, unable to meet Jay's gaze directly. "You're... you're such trouble."

Jay chuckled, leaning in to steal another kiss. "You love it."

And honestly, Jungwon couldn't deny it anymore.

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was i really bored and decided to give jay a top moment yes did i regret that thought not one bit plus he asked for consent